So, lately, I have been trying to escape perversion, but it somehow finds it's way back then I feel like am disgusted with what I have done after doing masturbation. I have a friend from church who says that gap is filled by masturbation, but should be filled with the Bible, and that I need to read it to hear the word of God speaking through me. He says God speaks to all of us, but some don't hear and those who have a true blue relationship with Jesus Christ can hear God speaking to them. I don't have a big drive to actually read it, wanna do other stuff, and when I do read it, find fascinating stories. Any suggestions on what I should probably do on that? Suppose I need to read it then. On the other hand, thinks have been fine for me, life's is okay, dunno why, but I feel I want a girlfriend, which am well aware that I need to be on my toes about diving into perversion by doing relationships, it's just plainly a friend with benifits, then again it takes away loniless. Blast some stuff today is really messed up. Well, with a bunch of other stuff happening to me these days about me getting hyper is just around friends, that's where I can get pretty random. Then when am online and get random without getting hyper is something I would like to see, but... then I just get hyper again in real life. =P