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Lonliness. I hate it. I'm officially a loner. So now I wonder why I even type in this pathetic box since nobody reads this. I used to be very social, and had tons of friends. I had so many friends I could barely keep count. I then went to a large group of friends, and then it went to a small group - but we were closer. And now even they left. At lunch I sit by myself. Online I do things by myself. My old best friend only cares about her boyfriend now, and even when she's not around him she doesn't want to even be near me.

Nobody wants to tell me why. What's wrong with me? What did I do wrong? Is my fear?

I think perhaps now fear has finally devoured me. Over the years it gnawed at me and now I lost my voice. If I become fearless, who will I be? Ah, this journal entry probably took you, what...two minutes to read? Less? Well, it took me much contemplation. Since I'm alone anyway...there's nothing to loose.