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I've been thinking about all the times that people have said I'm pretty and not fat. And the times that I've thought I looked so pretty even if just for a day. And well I've done a lot of thinking and I had a revelation!

I may not be skinny but I'm not so big that I take up a ton of space! I'm short so that makes me look a bit bigger. If I were taller than my weight would look different on me. But there's nothing I can do about my height! That's genetic and by the way! There are more short people nowadays than there are tall people! Just call me fun-size! =D And even though I'm big, I still have a ton of energy, like a little kid! I don't have to stop to take a breath every few steps! I don't have weight issues like difficulty in breathing or diabetes! And unlike a lot of large people, I can still bend at my knees and pop right back up without grunting or losing breath. I'm not slow at doing things either. When there's work to be done, I don't move slowly, I work fast and hard! I have a terrific, awesome personality and most people who sit and talk to me for more than 5 minutes, like me! I haven't payed much attention to it before becuase I never thought it could be true, but I have guys flirt with me all the time at work! And there are so many guys online that like me! I know how to turn a guy on to! I have this one pic that is fail proof. And once a guy sees that, it doesn't really matter what my size is! And really, the only flab I have is mostly my torso, upper arms and thighs! Everywhere else is muscle! I don't need everyone to like me! If I don't know who someone is then there is no reason to care about what that person thinks of me! I look around and see girls who are bigger than I am and they don't seem to care about their size either! Granted I'm still going to try to lose weight, I'm not going to hate my body anymore! I've hated myself and the way I look for 21 years! There's no longer a reason to! It's not getting me anywhere and all it's ever done is make me feel bad about myself. I want to feel good about myself and the only way to do that is to love who I am and how I look! AND NO ONE CAN MAKE ME THINK DIFFERENTLY!