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okies... what to post.... ummm. hmmm. sigh, this isnt working well. ummm ok i have something. so i recently found out something, and it hasnt been going to well with me. i never thought this could happen, and it kinda took me by suprise. I mean, i guess its a normal thing, and alot of people are this way. I just never thought it could happen to this person. it never occured to me that this is reality and it could happen. i guess im jus in partial shock. im accepting of this change, and im sure whatever happens i will always be there for this person. im jus kinda scared that something might happen to them, that it might be wierd between us, or something in our relationship might go wrong. I want this person to be happy and to know ill always love them no matter what. I hope that whatever they do, they are sure that its the right choice. maybe a few days ago i might have had a different opinion. but after talking to someone (no not a shrink) jus a friend, they told me that someone in there family was this way too. now that also shocked me. i mean, if i thought that it was unlikely for the person i know, it was triple for the person my friend knows. (R.I.P, by the way). im so shocked and messed up on the inside that its like i have an electric chair inside of me. the wierdest part of it all, i dont want to talk. i dont want to tell my problems. i dont want a shoulder to cry on. i jus want to be able to work it out with this person, or get my head straight. i thought high school was confusing... then i found out my close friend was gay.