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I had a shield and a spear,
then in the distance, she appeared,
She had her face down, but i saw tears,
I dropped my gaurd, and ran to her,
I wrapped my arms around her and said "everything will be ok",
Then, I fealt the poke, between my ribs and scraping against my sternum,
She had stabbed me in the heart, I fell to my knees,
then, I saw her face, there were no tears, no emotion at all,
I asked why, but she only turned away,
She walked toward him and held him tight, I couldnt move,
I was paralyzed with pain, all within my heart,
I feel into the sand, then i looked, they were on grass,
my life, was ending there, I was dying alone,
she gave me empty promises and endless torture,
and I looked at her with red tears and said "I love you",
she turned around at the sound, I wondered if she heard me,
she came to my side, I smiled at that, thats when she spoke,
her words were cold, they made me shiver, and they fealt like needles,
she said she was happy, and that she didnt want me to ruin it,
I stared into her eyes and questioned her actions,
she gave me no answer, I knew I was nothing,
I probably always was that, I layed there in pain until someone came by,
She wrapped her arms around me and told me not to hurt her,
I promised her that, I still feel like im in sand, but shes trying to help me out,
I owe her my life, but now I have no shield, and my chest is weak,
If I get stabbed again, I will die, I know that,
I am in constant fear, because I know I dont stand a chance,
She could easily leave, and I cant stop her,
I always beg her not to leave me, she always says she wont,
Thats what she said as well, I believe her though, I have no other choice,
She is all I have left, I fear losing her more than my life,
I dont know what I can do anymore, I cant control anything,
If i beg, if i cry, if I bleed, does it change a thing?
I feel pain, I wonder if she feels mine too,
its driving me crazy, I cant sleep, and my body,
it doesnt act right anymore, tell me what to do, I need your help,
I may be needy, I may try to hard,
I guess I'm afraid, afraid that you will leave my arms,
and go into someone else's, its foolish to say, I know,
but you are all I have left, you say you love me more,
I dont want to argue against you, but this is my last love,
I will commit anything and everything to you, take my heart,
I wont take it back, it likes in your hands, out of them, it would die,
Take me for everything I am, but dont stay with me for guilt,
I have pride, and I hate pity like lies, even though it will hurt,
give me the truth, thats all I want, when I say I love you,
I mean it, I am not playing a game, I am living my life,
When i ask how you feel, tell me exactly, if its hard to explain, try,
I want you to understand that if nothing else,
I will do anything for the woman I love, belive me please,
I love you more than anything, and I just wish I could prove it to you