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ok idk if i 4got 2 mention my lil bro is leaving illinois 2 live with me and my mom n texas. but 2nite this is mostly about chris. heart


my frnd yasmine asked if she could txt chris and see if he would cheat on me. i said yes because i didnt think chris would cheat. yasmine said that chris was acting like he wasnt with me & tht he said he would hook up with her. he dididnt know who it was and HE said tht he never said yes 2 her. now ik i shouldve trusted my bf more but im so used 2 bn lied 2 & used tht i had expected it frm him, and ik he deserves better thn me. so i trusted yasmine crying (stupidest decsion ever) and got mad. chris got madder & dumped me crying crying crying immediatley i started crying but that wasnt enough. he said he was crying and cutting himself (i couldnt cuz i 4 got my sharpener blade) sad then he said he was gona kill himself and i comepletly lost it! i begged soooo hard but he stil tried. THANK GOD he didnt! nut now hes mad @ me ( he should be ) i made myself sick this morning but now i feel better bcuz hes alive and not depressed, just pissed off. problem is..... i cant get over him. sad ik how pathetic i am but if i cant have him ill b alon 4ever........ bye for now i guess sad

TODAYS RANDOM PHRASE: better dead, than messed up in the head