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Don't say your sorry! What the ******** do you have to be sorry for?! Don't say things bad about yourself! Theres nothing wrong with you! N-O-T-H-I-N-G Wrong with you.
You can trust me, no matter what... I wish I could take allyour pain away... Im sorry that theres nothing I can do, except what im doing now...

Crap it, i read this and now im crying a lil. Heh im so emotional sometimes.
Ahem anyway... I wish i could help you with your struggle in life Payne. Im doing all that i can. Im trying my best to be there for you and be a great friend for you and i -try- to make you happy, im just bad at it.
And youre only 14, if you want a relationship so bad you shall find one im sure. High school is a good opportunity. You dont realize how pretty you really are but others do so looks isnt a problem for you xD and your personality. well you just need to find the people who like it and deal with it like i do xDD
;P
And i think youre supposed to be here. I dunno if you realize but if i hadnt met you then i might of really killed myself a while ago o.o but i havent because i dont wanna leave you alone and you make me not alone on this freakin world and we work together in this life and yeah....
Dont let go please.

ok wow now i feel like its my ******** fault crying stupid avery im sorry he paid more attention to me he shouldnt have im so sorry i should have ignored him more and maybe you wouldnt be this sad. GAh i hate myself hate hate hate crying crying why must i ruin ppls frikin lives i should go away payne not you! im probably ruining ryans life to he wont admit it though crying I dont care if you secretly hate me or anyshit like that im so sorry so so so sorry )):

No, I don't hate you Marissy Dx I hate myself, and its not your fault!! Its Avery's for not talking to me! Its my fault for liking him! My fault, my fault, my fault. MY fault, bitches, mine. I'd laugh but I'm not in the mood...:/

Not. Your. Fault. How can it possibly be your fault? You can't help your feelings. And DANG! That's so freaking deep. A tumor attached to the world...Something misplaced...I can assure you you're not like that at all. A tumor usually brings something down to its death. With someone as talented and funny and pretty as you, there's no way you're a tumor. You make the world rise. That's just the way you are. And relationships are hard. They always will be. You can't just find one out of the blue. It takes time in the same way it takes time for a wound to heal. I'm not going to lie and say I know how you're feeling because I don't, but I want to know. You shouldn't have to suffer alone. That's why you have those three friends. You have a lot of others, too. There are a lot of people willing to share your pain and take that suffering off your shoulders. I'm here for you, and I'm willing to do just that. You shouldn't have to decide when you'll die. If you're scared to do anything of the sort, then you shouldn't even attempt to ponder it. If the thought causes fear, then it's not a thought worthy to put into action. That thought just causes you more suffering...and I'm sure that's the last thing you want. No one wants to suffer. Don't make yourself suffer. You can guide your way out of this. I'm here for you, and so is everyone else. You're gonna find someone someday. I promise.