this day could have been perfect except for a fact that i start missing him once more... i don't know why is that every time there was someone new, attempting to knock at my heart, there's always his shadow coming next to me... the worded shadow of his agony... i hate this feeling that seems like i'm stuck on him... i don't know what seems so wrong with moving on that every time i tried it, that more that it pounds me so much to the core...
i MISS him!!!
one fact that i cant deny...
i still LOVE him!!!
the reality of my everything...
and now i am SCARED!!!
the mere thing in my whole being that condoles loneliness every time i reached out to the memories of our broken past...
many people says:
if you don't go inside the cave of the tiger... how are you going to get its cub!!! but i was bitten by the snake... and made even frighten by the rope that resembles it... just like the saying that if you don't go after what you want... you'll never really gonna have it... and the destiny already assures the future and just made by the fate that triggers the call of to play... i know that there are lots of fish in the sea... but i lost my pole when the last one i got runs away from me... now i try moving on to such contiguity that forceful enough to jade me... i even adore the brightness of the direction... but every time i used the compass of my heart, i always find myself at the bottom line... tearing and reaping with my aching hand...
did you know that the heart has no pain receptors?!. it is so that the next time someone breaks your heart, MOVE ON!!! knowing that your pain is just an illusion. a temporary psychological disturbance that you have to overcome... mistakes are destined to be done... but to repeat it all over again... that doesn't make sense anymore!!! stare emo stare emo stare emo
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