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The opposite of love is indifference not hate because when someone doesn't care and ignores someone it can do damage emotionally and mentally and hating someone is still showing emotions so it doesn't really bother anyone this story expresses what I'm talking about it's hard to catch the gist of this story so if you don't get it I'll be glad to explain it to you if you ask

The Zoo Story

Edward Albee

for William Flanagan

CHARACTERS

PETER: A man in his early forties, neither fat nor gaunt, neither
handsome nor homely He wears tweeds, smokes a pipe, carries
horn-rimmed glasses. Although he is moving into middle age, his
dress and his manner would suggest a man younger.

JERRY: A man in his late thirties, not poorly dressed, but carelessly.
What was once a trim and lightly muscled body has begun to go to fat;
and while he is no longer handsome, it is evident that he once was.
His fall from physical grace should not suggest debauchery; he has, to
come closest to it. a great weariness.



THE SCENE:

It is Central Park; a Sunday afternoon in summer; the present. There
are two park benches, one towards either side of the stage; they both
face, the audience. Behind than: foliage, trees, sky.

[At the beginning PETER is seated on one of the benches. As the
curtain rises, PETER is seated on the bench stage-right. He is
reading a book. He stops reading, cleans his glasses, goes back to
reading. JERRY enters.]

JERRY: I've been to the zoo. [PETER doesn't notice.] I said, I've been
to the zoo. MISTER, I'VE BEEN TO THE ZOO!
PETER: Hm? . . . What? . . . I'm sorry, were you talking to me?
JERRY: I went to the zoo, and then I walked until I came here. Have
I been walking north?
PETER: [puzzled] North? Why . . I . . . I think so. Let me see.
JERRY: [pointing past the audience] Is that Fifth avenue?
PETER: Why ya; yes, it is.
JERRY: And what is that cross street there; that one, to the right?
PETER: That? Oh, that's Seventy-fourth Street.
JERRY: And the zoo is around Sixty-5fth Street; so, I've been walking
north.
PETER: [anxious to get back to his reading] Yes; it would seem so.
JERRY: Good old north.
PETER: [lightly, by reflex] Ha, ha.
JERRY: [after a slight pause] But not due north.
PETER: I ... well, no, not due north; but, we ... call it north. It's
northerly.
JERRY: [watches as PETER, anxious to dismiss him, prepares his pipe]
Well, boy, you're not going to get lung cancer, are you?
PETER: [looks up, a little annoyed, then smiles] No, sir. Not from this.
JERRY: No, sir. What you'll probably get is cancer of the mouth, and
then you'll have to wear one of those things Freud wore after
they took one whole side of his jaw away, What do they call
those things ?
PETER: [uncomfortable] A prosthesis?
JERRY: The very thing! A prosthesis. You're an educated man, aren't
you ? Are you a doctor ?
PETER: Oh, no; no. I read about it somewhere: Time magazine, I think.
[He turns to his book.]
JERRY: Well, Time magazine isn't for blockheads.
PETER: No, I suppose not.
JERRY: [after a pause] Boy, I'm glad that's Fifth Avenue there.
PETER: [vaguely] Yes .
JERRY: I don't like the west side of the park much.
PETER: Oh? [Then, slightly wary, but interested] Why?
JERRY: [offhand] I don't know.
PETER: Oh. [He returns to his book.]
JERRY: [stands for a few seconds, looking at PETER, who finally looks
up again, puzzled] Do you mind if we talk?
PETER: [obviously minding] Why . . . no, no.
JERRY: Yes you do; you do.
PETER: [puts his book down, his pipe out and away, smiling] No, I
really; I don't mind.
JERRY: Yes you do.
PETER: [finally decided] No; I don't mind at all, really.
JERRY: It's ... it's a nice day.
PETER: [stares unnecessarily at the sky] Yes. Yes, it is; lovely.
JERRY: I've been to the zoo.
PETER: Yes, I think you said so ... didn't you?
JERRY: you'll read about it in the papers tomorrow, if you don't see it
on your TV tonight. You have TV, haven't you?
PETER: Why yes, we have two; one for the children.
JERRY: You're married!
PETER: [with pleased emphasis] Why, certainly.
JERRY: It isn't a law, for God's sake.
PETER: No ... no, of course not.
JERRY: And you have a wife.
PETER: [bewildered by the seeming lack of communication] Yes!
JERRY: And you have children.
PETER: Yes; two.
JERRY: Boys?
PETER: No, girls ... both girls.
JERRY: But you wanted boys.
PETER: Well ... naturally, every man wants a son, but ...
JERRY: [lightly mocking] But that's the way the cookie crumbles?
PETER: [annoyed] I wasn't going to say that.
JERRY: And you're not going to have any more kids, are you?
PETER: [a bit distantly] No. No more. [Then back, and irksome] Why
did you say that? How would you know about that?
JERRY: The way you cross your legs, perhaps; something in the voice.
Or maybe I'm just guessing. Is it your wife?
PETER: [furious] That's none of your business! [A silence.] Do you
understand? [JERRY nods. PETER is quiet now.] Well, you're
right. We'll have no more children.
JERRY: [softly] That is the way the cookie crumbles.
PETER: [forgiving] Yes ... I guess so.
JERRY: Well, now; what else?
PETER: What were you saying about the zoo... that I'd read about it,
or see ...?
JERRY: I'll tell you about it, soon. Do you mind if I ask you questions?
PETER: Oh, not really.
JERRY: I'll tell you why I do it; I don't talk to many people except
to say like: give me a beer, or where's the john, or what time
does the feature go on, or keep your hands to yourself, buddy.
You know ¡ª things like that.
PETER: I must say I don t ...
JERRY: But every once in a while I like to talk to somebody, really
talk; like to get to know somebody, know all about him.
PETER: [lightly laughing, still a little uncomfortable] And am I the
guinea pig for today ?
JERRY: On a sun-drenched Sunday afternoon like this? Who better
than a nice married man with two daughters and ... uh ... a
dog? [PETER shakes his head.] No? Two dogs. [PETER shakes
his head again. Hm. No dogs? [PETER shakes his head, sadly.]
Oh, that's a shame. But you look like an animal man. CATS?
[PETER nods his head, ruefully.] Cats ! But, that can't be your
idea. No, sir. Your wife and daughters? [PETER nods his head.]
Is there anything else I should know?
PETER: [he has clear his throat] There are ... there are two parakeets.
One ... uh ... one for each of my daughters.
JERRY: Birds.
PETER: My daughters keep them in a cage in their bedroom.
JERRY: Do they carry disease? The birds.
PETER: I don't believe so.
JERRY: That's too bad. If they did you could set them loose in the
house and the cats could eat them and die, maybe. [PETER
look blank for a moment, then laughs.] And what else ? What
do you do to support your enormous household?
PETER: I ... uh ... I have an executive position with a ... a small
publishing house. We ... uh ... we publish text books.
JERRY: That sounds nice; very nice. What do you make?
PETER: [still cheerful] Now look here!
JERRY: Oh, come on.
PETER: Well, I make around eighteen thousand a year, but: don't carry
more than forty dollars at any one time ... in case you're a ...
a holdup man ... ha, ha, ha.
JERRY: [ignoring the above] Where do you live? [PETER is reluctant.]
Oh, look; I'm not going to rob you, and I'm not going to kidnap
your parakeets, your cats, or your daughters.
PETER: [too loud] I live between Lexington and Third Avenue, on
Seventy-fourth Street.
JERRY: That wasn't so hard, was it?
PETER: I didn't mean to seem ... ah ... it's that you don't really carry
on a conversation; you just ask questions. And I'm ... I'm
normally ... uh ... reticent. Why do you just stand there?
JERRY: I'll start walking around in a little while, and eventually I'll sit
down. [Recalling.] Wait until you see the expression on his face.
PETER: What? Whose face? Look here; is this Something about the
zoo?
JERRY: [distantly] The what?
PETER: The zoo; the zoo. Something about the zoo.
JERRY: The zoo?
PETER: You've mentioned it several times.
JERRY [still distant, but returning abruptly]: The zoo? Oh, yes; the
zoo. I was there before I came here. I told you that. Say, what's the
dividing line between upper-middle-middle-class and
lower-upper-middle-class?
PETER: My dear fellow, I ...
JERRY: Don't my dear fellow me.
PETER: [unhappily] Was I patronizing? I believe I was; I'm sorry. But,
you see, your question about the classes bewildered me.
JERRY: And when you're bewildered you become patronizing?
PETER: I ... I don't express myself too well, sometimes. [He attempts
a joke on himself.] I'm in publishing, not writing.
JERRY: [amused, but not at the humour] So be it. The truth is: I was
being patronizing.
PETER: Oh, now; you needn't say that.
[It is at this point that JERRY may begin to mow about the
stage with slowly increasing determination and authority,
but pacing himself, so that the long speech about the dog
comes at the high point of the arc.]
JERRY: All right. Who are your favourite writers? Baudelaire and J.P.
Marquand?
PETER: [wary] Well, I like a great many writers; I have a considerable
... catholicity of taste, if I may say so. Those two men are fine,
each in his way. [Warming up] Baudelaire, of course ... uh ... is
by far the finer of the two, but Marquand has a place ... in our
... uh ... national ...
JERRY: Skip it.
PETER: I ... sorry.
JERRY: Do you know what I did before I went to the zoo today? I
walked all the way up Fifth Avenue from Washington Square;
all the way.
PETER: Oh; you live in the Village! [This seems to enlighten Peter.]
JERRY: No, I don't. I took the subway down to the Village so I could
walk all the way up Fifth Avenue to the zoo. It's one of those
things a person has to do; sometimes a person has to go a very
long distance out of his way to come back a short distance
correctly.
PETER: [almost pounting] Oh, I thought you lived in the Village.
JERRY: What were you trying to do? Make sense out of things? Bring
order? The old pigeonhole bit? Well, that's easy; I'll tell you. I
live in a four-storey brownstone rooming-house on the upper
West Side between Columbus Avenue and Central Park West. I
live on the top floor; rear; west. It's a laughably small room,
and one of my walls is made of beaverboard; this beaverboard
separates my room from another laughably small room, so I
assume that the two rooms were once one room, a small room,
but not necessarily laughable. The room beyond my beaver
board wall is occupied by a coloured queen who always keeps
his door open; well, not always but always when he's plucking
his eyebrows, which he does with Buddhist concentration. This
coloured queen has rotten teeth, which is rare, and he has a
Japanese kimono, which is also pretty rare; and he wears this
kimono to and from the john in the hall, which is pretty
frequent. I mean, he goes to the john a lot. He never bothers
me, and never brings anyone up to his room. All he does is
pluck his eyebrows, wear his kimono and go to the john. Now,
the two front rooms on my floor are a little larger, I guess; but
they're pretty small, too. There's a Puerto Rican family in one
of them, a husband, a wife, and some kids; I don't know how
many. These people entertain a lot. And in the other front room,
there's somebody living there, but I don't know who it is. I've
never seen who it is. Never. Never ever.
PETER: [embarrassed] Why ... why do you live there?
JERRY: [From a distance again] I don't know.
PETER: It doesn't sound a very nice place ... where you live.
JERRY: Well, no; it isn't an apartment in the East Seventies. But, then
again, I don't have one wife, two daughters, two cats and two
parakeets. What I do have, I have toilet articles, a few clothes,
a hot plate that I'm not supposed to have, a can opener, one
that works with a key, you know: a Knife, two forks, and two
spoons, one small, one large; three plates, a cup, a saucer, a
drinking glass, two picture frames, both empty, eight or nine
books, a pack of pornographic playing cards, regular deck, an
old Western Union typewriter that prints nothing but capital
letters, and a small strong-box without a lock which has in it ...
what ? Rocks ! Some rocks ... sea rounded rocks I picked up on
the beach when I was a kid. Under which ... weighed down ...
are some letters ... please letters ... please why don't you do
this, and please when will you do that letters. And when letters,
too. When will you write ? When will you come ? When ? These
letters are from more recent years.
PETER: [stares glumly at his shoes, then] About those two Empty
picture frames ...?
JERRY: I don't see why they need any explanation at all. Isn't it clear?
I don't have pictures of anyone to put in them.
PETER: Your parents ... perhaps ... a girl friend ...
JERRY: You're a very sweet man, and you're possessed of a truly
enviable innocence. But good old Mom and good old Pop are
dead ... you know? ... I'm broken up about it, too ... I mean
really. BUT. That particular vaudeville act is playing the cloud
circuit now, so I don't see how I can look at them, all neat and
framed. Besides, or, rather, to be pointed about it, good old
Mom walked out on good old Pop when I was ten and a half
years old; she embarked on an adulterous turn of our southern
states ... a journey of a year's duration ... and her most
constant companion ... among others, among many others ... was
a Mr Barleycorn. At least, that's what good old Pop told me
after he went down ... came back ... brought her body north.
We'd received the news between Christmas and New Year's,
you see, that good old Mom had parted with the ghost in some
dump in Alabama. And, without the ghost ... she was less
welcome. I mean, what was she? A stiff ... a northern stiff. At
any rate, good old Pop celebrated the New Year for an even two
weeks and then slapped into the front of a somewhat moving
city omnibus, which sort of cleaned things out family-wise.
Well no; then there was Mom's sister, who was given neither
to sin nor the consolations of the bottle. I moved in on her, and
my memory of her is slight excepting I remember still that she
did all things dourly: sleeping, eating, working, praying. She
dropped dead on the stairs to her apartment, my apartment then,
too, on the afternoon of my high school graduation. A terribly
middle-European joke, if you ask me.
PETER: Oh, my; oh, my.
JERRY: Oh, your what? But that was a long time ago, and I have no
feeling about any of it that I care to admit to myself. Perhaps
you can see, though, why good old Mom and good old Pop are
frame less. What's your name ? Your first name ?
JERRY: I'd forgotten to ask you. I'm Jerry.
PETER: [with a slight nervous laugh] Hello, Jerry.
JERRY: [nods his hello] And let's see now; what's the point of having
a girl's picture, especially in two frames? I have two picture
frames, you remember. I never see the pretty little ladies more
than once, and most of them wouldn't be caught in the same
room with a camera. It's odd, and I wonder if it's sad.
PETER: The girls?
JERRY: No. I wonder if it's sad that I never see the little ladies more
than once. I've never been able to have sex with, or, how is it
put ? ... make love to anybody more than once. Once; that's it
... Oh, wait; for a week and a half, when I was fifteen ... and I
hang my head in shame that puberty was late ... I was a
h-o-m-o-s-e-x-u-a-l. I mean, I was queer ... [Very fast] ...
queer, queer, queer ... with bells ringing, banners snapping in
the wind. And for those eleven days, I met at least twice a day
with the park superintendent's son ... a Greek boy, whose
birthday was the same as mine, except he was a year older. I
think I was very much in love ... maybe just with sex. But that
was the jazz of a very special hotel, wasn't it ? And now; oh,
do I love the little ladies; really, I love them. For about an hour.
PETER: Well, it seems perfectly simple to me ...
JERRY: [angry] Look ! Are you going to tell me to get married and
have parakeets ?
PETER: [angry himself] Forget the parakeets ! And stay single if you
want to. It's no business of mine. I didn't start this
conversation in the ...
JERRY: All right, all right. I'm sorry. All right? You're not angry ?
PETER: [laughing] No, I'm not angry.
JERRY: [relieved] Good. [Now back to his previous tone.] Interesting
that you asked me about the picture frames. I would have
thought that you would have asked me about the pornographic
playing cards.
PETER: [with a knowing smile] Oh, I've seen those cards.
JERRY: That's not the point. [Laughs] I suppose when you were a kid
you and your pals passed them around, or you had a pack of
your own.
PETER: Wdl, I guess a lot of us did.
JERRY: And you threw them away just before you got married.
PETER: Oh, now; look here. I didn't need anything like that when I got
older.
JERRY: No?
PETER: [embarrassed] I'd rather not talk about these things.
JERRY: So? Don't. Besides, I wasn't trying to pull your
post-adolescent sexual life and hard times; what I wanted to get
at is the value difference between pornographic playing cards
when you're a kid, and pornographic playing cards when you're
older. It's that when you're a kid you use the cards as a
substitute for a real experience, and when you're older you use
real experience as a substitute for the fantasy. But I imagine
you'd rather hear about what happened at the zoo.
PETER: [enthusiastic]: Oh, yes; the zoo. [Then, awkward:] That is ... if
you ...
JERRY: Let me tell you about why I went ... well, let me tell you some
things. I've told you about the fourth floor of the rooming house
where I live. I think the rooms are better as you go down, floor
by floor. I guess they are; I don't know. I don't know any of
the people on the third and second floors. Oh, wait ! I do know
that there's a lady living on the third floor, in the front. I know
because she cries all the time. Whenever I go out or come back
in, whenever I pass her door, I always hear her crying, muffled,
but ... very determined. Very determined indeed. But the one I'm
getting to, and all about the dog, is the landlady. I don't like to
use words that are too harsh in describing people. I don't like
to. But the landlady is a fat, ugly, mean, stupid, unwashed,
misanthropic, cheap, drunken bag of garbage. And you may have
noticed that I very seldom we profanity, so I can't describe her
as well as I might.
PETER: You describe her ... vividly.
JERRY: Well, thanks. Anyway, she has a dog, and I will tell you about
the dog, and she and her dog are the gatekeepers of my
dwelling. The woman is bad enough; she leans around in the
entrance hall, spying to see that I don't bring in things or
people, and when she's had her midafternoon pint of
lemon-flavoured gin she always stops me in the hall, and grabs
a hold of my coat or my arm, and she press a her disgusting
body up against me to keep me in a corner so she can talk to
me. The smell of her body and her breath ... you can't imagine
it ... and somewhere, somewhere in the back of that pea-sized
brain of hers, an organ developed just enough to let her eat,
drink and emit, she has some foul parody of sexual desire. And
I, Peter, I am the object of her sweaty lust.
PETER: That's disgusting. That's ... horrible.
JERRY: But I have found a way to keep her off. When she talks to me,
when she presses herself to my body and mumbles about her
room and how I should come there, I merely say: but, Love;
wasn't yesterday enough for you, and the day before ? Then
she puzzles, she makes slits of her tiny eyes, she sways a little,
and then, Peter ... and it is at this moment that I think I might
be doing some good in that tormented house ... a simple-minded
smile begins to form on her unthinkable face, and she giggles
and groans as she thinks about yesterday and the day before;
as she believes and relives what never happened. Then, she
motions to that black monster of a dog she has, and she goes
back to her room. And I am safe until our next meeting.
PETER: It's so ... unthinkable. I find it hard to believe that people such
as that really are.
JERRY: [lightly mocking] It's for reading about, isn't it ?
PETER: [seriously] Yes.
JERRY: And fact is better left to fiction. You're right, Peter. Well,
what I have been meaning to tell you about is the dog; I shall,
now.
PETER: [nervously] Oh, yes; the dog.
JERRY: Don't go. You're not thinking of going, are you?
PETER: Well ... no, I don t think so.
JERRY: [as if to a child] because after I tell you about the dog,
do you know what then ? Then ... then I'll tell you about what
happened at the zoo.
PETER: [laughing faintly] You're ... you're full of stories, aren't you?
JERRY: You don't have to listen. Nobody is holding you here;
remember that. Keep that in your mind.
PETER: [irritably] I know that.
JERRY: You do? Good.
[The following long speech, it seems to me, should be done with a
great deal of action, to achieve a hypnotic effect on Peter, and
on the audience too. Some specific actions have been suggested,
but the director and the actor playing JERRY might best work it
out for themselves.]
ALL RIGHT. [As if reading from a huge billboard] THE STORY
OF JERRY AND THE DOG! [Natural again] What I am going to
tell you has something to do with how sometimes it's necessary
to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a
short distance correctly; or, maybe I only think that it has
something to do with that. But, it's why I went to the zoo
today, and why I walked north ... northerly, rather ... until I
came here. All right. The dog, I think I told you, is a black
monster of a beast: an oversized head, tiny, tiny ears, and eyes
... bloodshot, infected, maybe; and a body you can see the ribs
through the skin. The dog is black, all black; all black except for
the bloodshot eyes, and ... yes ... and an open sore on its ...
right forepaw; that is red, too. And, oh yes; the poor monster,
and I do believe it's an old dog ... it's certainly a misused one ...
almost always has an erection . . . of sorts. That's red, too. And
... what else? ... oh, yes; there's a grey-yellow-white colour, too,
when he bares his fangs. Like this: Grrrrrrr! Which is what he
did when he saw me for the first time ... the day I moved in. I
worried about that animal the very first minute I met him. Now,
animals don't take to me like Saint Francis had birds hanging
off him all the time. What I mean is: animals are indifferent to
me ... like people [He smiles slightly] ... most of the time. But
this dog wasn't indifferent. From the very beginning he'd snarl
and then go for me, to get one of my legs. Not like he was
rabid, you know; he was sort of a stumbly dog, but he wasn't
half-assed, either. It was a good, stumbly run, but I always got
away. He got a piece of my trouser leg, look, you can see right
here, where it's mended; he got that the second day I lived
there; but, I kicked free and got upstairs fast, so that was that.
[Puzzles] I still don't know to this day how the other roomers
manage it, but you know what I think: I think it had to do only
with me. Cosy. So. Anyway, this went on for over a week,
whenever I came in; but never when I went out. That's funny.
Or, it was funny. I could pack up and live in the street for all
the dog cared. Well, I thought about it up in my room one day,
one of the times after I'd bolted upstairs, and I made up my
mind. I decided: First, I'll kill the dog with kindness, and if that
doesn't work ... I'll just kill him. [PETER winces.] Don't react,
Peter; just listen. So, the next day I went out and bought a bag
of hamburgers, medium rare, no catsup, no onion; and on the
way home I threw away all the rolls and kept just the meat.
[Action for the following, perhaps.]
When I got back to the rooming-house the dog was waiting for
me. I half opened the door that led into the entrance hall, and
there he was; waiting for me. It figures. I went in, very
cautiously, and I had the hamburgers, you remember; I opened
the bag, and I set the meat down about twelve feet from where
the dog was snarling at me. Like so! He snarled; stopped
snarling; sniffed; moved slowly; then faster; then faster towards
the meat. Well, when he got to it he stopped, and he looked at
me. I smiled; but tentatively, you understand. He turned his face
back to the hamburgers, smelled, sniffed some more, and then ...
RRRAAAAGGGGGHHHH, like that . . . he tore into them. It was
as if he had never eaten anything in his life before, except like
garbage. Which might very well have been the truth. I don't
think the landlady ever eats anything but garbage. But. He ate
all the hamburgers, almost all at once, making sounds in his
throat like a woman. Then, when he'd finished the meat, the
hamburger, and tried to eat the paper, too, he sat down and
smiled. I think he smiled; I know cats do. It was a very
gratifying few moments. Then, BAM, he snarled and made for
me again. He didn't get me this time, either. So, I got upstairs,
and I lay down on my bed and started to think about the dog
again. To be truthful, I was offended, and I was damn mad, too.
It was six perfectly good hamburgers with not enough pork in
them to make it disgusting. I was offended. But, after a while, I
decided to try it for a few more days. If you think about it, this
dog had what amounted to an antipathy towards me; really. And,
I wondered if I mightn't overcome this antipathy. So, I tried it
for five more days, but it was always the same: snarl, sniff;
move; faster; stare; gobble; RAAGGGHHH; smile; snarl; BAM.
Well, now; by this time Columbus Avenue was strewn with
hamburger rolls and I was less offended than disgusted. So, I
decided to kill the dog.
[PETER raises a hand in protest.]
Oh, don't be so alarmed, Peter; I didn't succeed. The day
I tried to kill the dog I bought only one hamburger and what
I thought was a murderous portion of rat poison. When I bought
the hamburger I asked the man not to bother with the roll, all I
wanted was the meat. I expected some reaction from him, like:
we don't sell no hamburgers without rolls; or, wha' d'ya wanna
do, eat it out'a ya han's ? But no; he smiled benignly, wrapped
up the hamburger in waxed paper, and said: A bite for ya
p***y-cat? I wanted to say: No, not really; it's part of a plan to
poison a dog I know. But, you can't say 'a dog I know' without
sounding funny; so I said, a little too loud, I'm afraid, and too
formally: YES, A BITE FOR MY PUSSYCAT. People looked up.
It always happens when I try to simplify things; people look up.
But that's neither hither nor thither. So. On my way back to the
rooming-house, I kneaded the hamburger and the rat poison
together between my hands, at that point feeling as much
sadness as disgust. I opened the door to the entrance hall, and
there the monster was, waiting to take the offering and then
jump me. Poor b*****d; he never learned that the moment he
took to smile before he went for me gave me time enough to get
out of range. BUT, there he was; malevolence with an erection,
waiting. I put the poison patty down, moved towards the stairs
and watched. The poor animal gobbled the food down as usual,
smiled, which made me almost sick, and then, BAM. But, I
sprinted up the stairs, as usual, and the dog didn't get me, as
usual. AND IT CAME TO PASS THAT THE BEAST WAS
DEATHLY ILL. I knew this because he no longer attended me,
and because the landlady sobered up. She stopped me in the hall
the same evening of the attempted murder and confided the
information that God had struck her puppy dog a surely fatal
blow. She had forgotten her bewildered lust, and her eyes were
wide open for the first time. They looked like the dog's eyes.
She sniveled and implored me to pray for the animal. I wanted
to say to her: Madam, I have myself to pray for, the coloured
queen, the Puerto Rican family, the person in the front room
whom I've never seen, the woman who cries deliberately behind
her closed door, and the rest of the people in all rooming-houses,
everywhere; besides, Madam, I don't understand how to pray.
But ... to simplify things . . . I told her I would pray. She looked
up. She said that I was a liar, and that I probably wanted the
dog to die. I told her, and there was so much truth here, that I
didn't want the dog to die. I didn't, and not just because I'd
poisoned him. I'm afraid that I must tell you I wanted the dog to
live so that I could see what our new relationship might come
to.

[PETER indicates his increasing displeasure and slowly growing
antagonism.]
Please understand, Peter; that sort of thing is important. You
must believe me; it is important. We have to know the effect of our
actions. [Another deep sigh.] Well, anyway; the dog recovered.
I have no idea why, unless he was a descendant of the puppy that
guarded the gates of hell or some such resort. I'm not up on my
mythology. [He pronounces the word myth-o-logy.] Are you?
[PETER sets to thinking, but JERRY goes on.]
At any rate, and you've missed the eight-thousand-dollar;
question, Peter; at any rate, the dog recovered his health and the
landlady recovered her thirst, in no way altered by the
bow-wow's deliverance. When I came home from a movie that
was playing on Forty-second Street, a movie I'd seen, or one
that was very much like one or several I'd seen, after the
landlady told me puppykins was better, I was so hoping for the
dog to be waiting for me. I was ... well, how would you put it ...
enticed ? ... fascinated ? ... no, I don't think so ...
heart-shatteringly anxious, that's it: I was heart-shatteringly
anxious to confront my friend again.
[PETER reacts scoffingly.]
Yes, Peter; friend. That's the only word for it. I was
heart-shatteringly et cetera to confront my doggy friend again. I
came in the door and advanced, unafraid, to the center of the
entrance hall. The beast was there ... looking at me. And, you
know, he looked better for his scrape with the nevermind. I
stopped; I looked at him; he looked at me. I think ... I think we
stayed a long time that way ... still, stone-statue ... just looking
at one another. I looked more into his face than he looked into
mine. I mean, I can concentrate longer at looking into a dog's
face than a dog can concentrate at looking into mine, or into
anybody else's face, for that matter. But during that twenty
seconds or two hours that we looked into each other's face, we
made contact. Now, here is what I had wanted to happen: I loved
the dog now, and I wanted him to love me. I had tried to love,
and I had tried to kill, and both had been unsuccessful by
themselves. I hoped ... and I don't really know why I expected
the dog to understand anything, much less my motivations . . . I
hoped that the dog would understand.
[PETER seems to be hypnotized]
It's just ... it's just that ... [JERRY is abnormally tense, now.] ...
it's just that if you can't deal with people, you have to make a
start somewhere. WITH ANIMALS ! [Much faster now, and like
a conspirator] Don't you see.? A person has to have some way of
dealing with SOMETHING. If not with people ... SOMETHING.
With a bed, with a cockroach, with a mirror ... no, that's too
hard, that's one of the last steps. With a cockroach, with a ...
with a ... with a carpet, a roll of toilet paper ... no, not that,
either ... that's a mirror, too; always check bleeding. You see
how hard it is to find things ? With a street corner, and too
many lights, all colours reflecting on the oily-wet streets ... with
a wisp of smoke, a wisp ... of smoke ... with ... with porno.
graphic playing cards, with a strong-box . . . WITHOUT A
LOCK ... with love, with vomiting, with crying, with fury
because the pretty little ladies aren't pretty little ladies, with
making money with your body which is an act of love and I
could prove it, with howling because you're alive; with God.
How about that? WITH GOD WHO IS A COLOURED QUEEN
WHO WEARS A KIMONO AND PLUCKS HIS EYEBROWS !
WHO IS A WOMAN WHO CRIES WITH DETERMINATION
BEHIND HER CLOSED DOOR ... with God who, I'm told, turned
his back on the whole thing some time ago ... with ... some day,
with people. [JERRY sighs the next word heavily.] People. With
an idea; a concept. And where better, where ever better in this
humiliating excuse for a jail, where better to communicate one
single, simple-minded idea than in an entrance hall? Where? It
would be A START! Where better to make a beginning ... to
understand and just possibly be understood ... a beginning of an
understanding, than with ...
[Here JERRY seems to fall into almost grotesque fatigue]
... than with A DOG. Just that; a dog.
[Here there is a silence that might be prolonged for a moment
or so; then JERRY wearily finishes his story.] A dog. It seemed
like a perfectly sensible idea. Man is a dog's best friend, remember.
So: the dog and I looked at each other. I longer than the dog.
And what I saw then has been the same ever since. Whenever
the dog and I see each other we both stop where we are. We
regard each other with a mixture of sadness and suspicion, and
then we feign indifference. We walk past each other safely; we
have an understanding. It's very sad, but you'll have to admit
that it is an understanding. We had made man attempts at
contact, and we had failed. The dog has returned to garbage, and
I to solitary but free passage. I have not returned. I mean to
say, I have gain6d solitary free passage, if that much further
loss can be said to be gain. I have learned that neither kindness
nor cruelty by themselves, independent of each other, creates any
effect beyond themselves; and I have learned that the two
combined, together, at the same time, are the teaching emotion.
And what is gained is loss. And what has been the result: the
dog and I have attained a compromise; more of a bargain, really.
We neither love nor hurt because we do not try to reach each
other. And, was trying to feed the dog an act of love? And,
perhaps, was the dog's attempt to bite me not an act of love? If
we can so misunderstand, well then, why have we invented the
word love in the first place ?
[There is silence. JERRY moves to Peter's bench and its down beside
him. This is the first time JERRY has sat down during the play.]
The Story of Jerry and the Dog: the end.
[PETER is silent.]
Well, Peter ? [JERRY is suddenly cheerful.] Well, Peter? Do you
think I could sell that story to the Reader's Digest and make a
couple of hundred bucks for The Most Unforgettable Character
I've ever Met, Huh?
[JERRY is animated, but PETER is disturbed.]
Oh, come on now, Peter; tell me what you think.
PETER: [numb] I ... I don't understand what ... I don't think I ...
[Now almost tearfully] Why did you tell me all of this ?
JERRY: Why not?
PETER: I DON'T UNDERSTAND!
JERRY: [furious, but whispering] That's a lie.
PETER: No. No, it's not.
JERRY: [quietly] I tried to explain it to you as I went along. I went
slowly; it all has to do with ...
PETER: I DON T WANT TO HEAR ANY MORE. I don't understand
you, or your landlady, or her dog....
JERRY: Her dog! I thought it was my ... No. No, you're right. It is
her dog. [Looks at PETER in intently, shaking his head.] I don't
know what I was thinking about; of course you don't
understand. [In a monotone, wearily] I don't live in your block;
I'm not married to two parakeets, or whatever your set-up is. I
am a permanent transient, and my home is the sickening
rooming-houses on the West Side of New York City, which is
the greatest city In the world. Amen.
PETER: I'm ... I'm sorry; I didn't mean to ...
JERRY: Forget it. I suppose you don't quite know what to make of me,
eh ?
PETER: [a joke] We get all kinds in publishing. [Chuckles.]
JERRY: You're a funny man. [He forces a laugh.] You know that ?
You're a very ... a richly comic person.
PETER: [modestly, but amused] Oh, now, not really. [Still chuckling.]
JERRY: Peter, do I annoy you, or confuse you ?
PETER: [lightly] Well, I must confess that this wasn't the kind of
afternoon I'd anticipated.
JERRY: YOU mean, I'm not the gentleman you were expecting.
PETER: I wasn't expecting anybody.
JERRY: No, I don't imagine you were. But I'm here, and I'm not
leaving.
PETER: [consulting his watch] Well, you may not be, but I must be
getting home soon.
JERRY: Oh, come on; stay a while longer.
PETER: I really should get home; you see . . .
JERRY: [tickles Peter's ribs with his fingers] Oh, come on.
PETER: [he is very ticklish; as JERRY continues to tickle him his
voice becomes falsetto.] No, I ... OHHHH! Don t do that. Stop,
Stop. Ohhh, no, no.
JERRY: Oh, come on.
PETER: [as JERRY tickles] Oh, hee, hee, hee. I must go.
I ... hee, hee, hee. After all, stop, stop, hee, hee, hee, after all,
the parakeets will be getting dinner ready soon. Hee, hee. And
the cats are setting the table. Stop, stop, and, and ...
[He is beside himself now.] ... and we're having ... hee, hee ...
uh ... ho, ho, ho.
[JERRY stops tickling Peter, but the combination of tickling and his
own mad whimsy has PETER laughing almost hysterically. As
his laughter continues, then subsides, JERRY watches him, with
a curious fixed smile.]
JERRY: Peter?
PETER: Oh, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. What ? What ?
JERRY: Listen, now.
PETER: Oh, ho, ho. What ... what is it, Jerry? Oh, my.
JERRY: [mysteriously] Peter, do you want to know what
happened at the zoo ?
PETER: Ah, ha, ha. The what ? Oh, yes; the zoo. Oh, ho, ho.
Well, I had my own zoo there for a moment with ... hee, hee,
the parakeets getting dinner ready, and the ... ha, ha, whatever
it was, the ...
JERRY: [calmly] Yes, that was very funny, Peter. I wouldn't have
expected it. But do you want to hear about what happened at
the zoo, or not?
PETER: Yes. Yes, by all means; tell me what happened at the zoo.
Oh, my. I don't know what happened to me.
JERRY: Now I'll let you in on what happened at the zoo; but
first, I should tell you why I went to the zoo. I went to the zoo to
find out more about the way people exist with animals, and the way
animals exist with each other, and with people too. Tt probably
wasn't a fair test, what with everyone separated by bars from
everyone else, the animals for the most part from each other,
and always the people from the animals. But, if it's a zoo,
that's the way it is. [He pokes Peter on the arm.] Move over.
PETER: [friendly] I'm sorry, haven't you enough room?
[He shifts a little.]
JERRY: [smiling slightly] Well, all the animals are there, and
all the people are there, and it's Sunday and all the children
are there.
[He pokes Peter again.] Move over.
PETER: [patiently, still friendly] All right. [He moves some more,
and JERRY has all the room he might need.]
JERRY: And it's a hot day, so all the stench is there, too, and
all the balloon sellers, and all the ice-cream sellers, and all
the seals are barking, and all the birds are screaming.
[Pokes Peter harder.] Move over !
PETER: [beginning to be annoyed] Look here, you have more
than enough room! [But he moves more, and is now fairly
cramped at one end of the bench.]
JERRY: And I am there, and it's feeding time at the lion's
house, and the lion keeper comes into the lion cage, one of the
lion cages, to feed one of the lions.
[Punches Peter on the arm, hard.] MOVE OVER!
PETER: [very annoyed] I can't move over any more,
and stop hitting me. What's the matter with you?
JERRY: Do you want to hear the story?
[Punches Peter's arm again.]
PETER: [flabbergasted] I'm not so sure! I certainly don't
want to be punched in the arm.
JERRY: [punches Peter's arm again] Like that?
PETER: Stop it. What's the matter with you?
JERRY: I'm crazy, you b*****d.
PETER: That isn't funny.
JERRY: Listen to me, Peter. I want this bench. You go sit
on the bench over there, and if you're good I'll tell you the
rest of the story.
PETER: [flustered] But ... what ever for? What is the matter
with you? Besides, I see no reason why I should give up
this bench. I sit on this bench almost every Sunday afternoon,
in good weather. It's secluded here; there's never anyone sitting
here, so I have it all to myself.
JERRY: [softly] Get off this bench, Peter; I want it.
PETER: [almost whining]: No.
JERRY: I said I want this bench, and I'm going to have it
Now get over there.
PETER: People can't have everything they want. You should
know that; it's a rule; people can have some of the things
they want, but they can't have everything.
JERRY: [laughs] Imbecile! You're slow-witted!
PETER: Stop that!
JERRY: You're a vegetable! Go lie down on the ground.
PETER: [intense] Now you listen to me. I've put up with you
all afternoon.
JERRY: Not really.
PETER: LONG ENOUGH. I've put up with you long enough.
I've listened to you because you seemed ... well, because
I thought you wanted to talk to somebody.
JERRY: You put things well; economically, and, yet ...
oh, what is the word I want to put justice to your ... JESUS,
you make me sick ... get off here and give me my bench.
PETER: MY BENCH!
JERRY: [pushes Peter almost, but not quite, off the bench]
Get out of my sight. I
PETER: [regaining his position] God da ... mn you. That's
enough! I've had enough of you. I will not give up this bench;
you can't have it, and that's that. Now, go away.
[JERRY snorts but does not mow.] Go away, I said.
[JERRY does not move.] Get away from here. If you don't
move on ... you're a bum ... that's what you are.... If you
don't move on, I'll get a policeman here and make you go.
[JERRY laughs, stays.] I warn you, I'll call a policeman.
JERRY: [softly] You won't find a policeman around here;
they're all over on the west side of the park chasing fairies
down from trees or out of the bushes. That's all they do.
That's their function. So scream your head off; it won't do
you any good.
PETER: POLICE! I warn you, I'll have you arrested. POLICE!
[Pause.] I said POLICE! [Pause.] I feel ridiculous.
JERRY: You look ridiculous: a grown man screaming
for the police on a bright Sunday afternoon in the park with
nobody harming you. If a policeman did fill his quota and
come sludging over this way he'd probably take you in
as a nut.
PETER: [with disgust and impotence]: Great God, I just
came here to read, and now you want me to give up the
bench. You're mad.
JERRY: Hey, I got news for you, as they say. I'm on your
precious bench, and you're never going to have it for
yourself again.
PETER: [furious] Look, you; get off my bench. I don't care
if it makes any sense or not. I want this bench to myself;
I want you OFF IT !
JERRY [mocking]: Aw ... look who's mad.
PETER: GET OUT !
JERRY: No.
PETER: I WARN YOU !
JERRY: Do you know how ridiculous you look now ?
PETER: [his fury and self-consciousness have possessed
him] It doesn't matter. [He is almost crying.] GET AWAY
FROM MY BENCH!
JERRY: Why? You have everything in the world you want;
you've told me about your home, and your family, and your
own little zoo. You have everything, and now you want this
bench. Are these the things men fight for ? Tell me, Peter,
is this bench, this iron and this wood, is this your honour?
Is this the thing in the world you'd fight for ? Can you think
of anything more absurd?
PETER: Absurd? Look, I'm not going to talk to you about
honour, or even try to explain it to you. Besides, it isn't
a question of honour; but even if it were, you wouldn't
understand.
JERRY: [contemptuously] You don't even know what
you're saying, do you? This is probably the first time in
your life you've had anything more trying to face than
changing your cats' toilet box. Stupid ! Don't you have
any idea, no even the slightest, what other people need ?
PETER: Oh, boy, listen to you; well, you don't need this
bench. That's for sure.
JERRY: Yes; yes, I do.
PETER: [quivering] I've come here for years; I have
hours of great pleasure, great satisfaction, right here.
And that's important to a man. I'm a responsible person,
and I'm a GROWN-UP. This is my bench, and you have
no right to take it away from me.
JERRY: Fight for it, then. Defend yourself; defend your
bench.
PETER: You've pushed me to it. Get up and fight.
JERRY: Like a man?
PETER: [still angry] Yes, like a man, if you insist on
mocking me even further.
JERRY: I'll have to give you credit for one thing:
you are a vegetable, and a slightly near-sighted one,
I think ...
PETER: THAT'S ENOUGH....
JERRY: ... but, you know, as they say on TV all the time
£­ you know £­ and I mean this, Peter, you have a certain
dignity; it surprises me ....
PETER: STOP!
JERRY: [rises lazily]: Very well, Peter, we'll battle for
the bench, but we're not evenly matched. [He takes out
and clicks open an ugly-looking knife.]
PETER: [suddenly awakening to the reality of the situation]
You are mad! You're stark raving mad! YOU'RE GOING TO
KILL ME!
[But before Peter has time to think what to do,
JERRY tosses the knife at Peter's feet.]
JERRY: There you go. Pick it up. You have the knife
and we'll be more evenly matched.
PETER: [horrified] No!
[JERRY rushes over to Peter, grabs him by the collar;
PETER rises; their faces almost touch.]
JERRY: Now you pick up that knife and you fight with me.
You fight for your self-respect; you fight for that goddamned
bench.
PETER: [struggling] No! Let ... let go of me! He... Help!
JERRY: [slaps Peter on each "fight"] You fight, you miserable
b*****d; fight for that bench; fight for your parakeets; fight for
your cats; fight for your two daughters; fight for your wife;
fight for your manhood, you pathetic little vegetable.
[Spits in Peter's face] You couldn't even get your wife
with a male child.
PETER: [breaks away, enraged] It's a matter of genetics, not
manhood, you ... you monster. [He darts down, picks up the
knife and backs of a little; breathing heavily.] I'll give you one
last chance; get out of here and leave me alone! [He holds the
knife with a firm arm, but far in front of him, not to attack, but to
defend]
JERRY: [sighs heavily] So be it !
[With a rush he charges Peter and impales himself on the knife.
Tableau: For just a moment, complete silence, JERRY impaled
on the knife at the end of Peter's still firm arm. Then PETER
screams, pulls away, leaving the knife in JERRY. JERRY is
motionless, on point. Then he, too, screams, and it must be the
sound of an infuriated and fatally wounded animal. With the
knife in him, he stumbles back to the bench that Peter had
Dacated. He crumbles there, sitting, facing Peter, his eyes wide
in agony, his mouth open.]
PITTER: [whispering] Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God ...
[PETER repeats these words many times, very rapidly. JERRY is
dying; but now his expression seems to change. His features
relax, and while his voice varies, sometimes wrenched with
pain, for the most part he seems removed from his dying. He
smiles.]
JERRY: Thank you, Peter. I mean that, now; thank you very much.
[PETER'S mouth drops open. He cannot move; he is
transfixed.] Oh, Peter, I was so afraid I'd drive you away. [He
laughs as best he can.] You don't know how afraid I was you'd
go away and leave me. And now I'll tell you what happened at
the zoo. I think ... I think this is what happened at the zoo ... I
think. I think that while I was at the zoo I decided that I would
walk north ... northerly, rather ... until I found you ... or
somebody ... and I decided that I would talk to you ... I would
tell you things ... and things that I would tell you would ...
Well, here we are. You see ? Here we are. But ... I don't know
... could I have planned all this? No ... no, I couldn't have.
But I think I did. And now I've told you what you wanted to know,
haven't I? And now you know all about what happened at the
zoo. And now you know what you'll see in your TV, and the
face I told you about ... you remember ... the face I told you
about ... my face, the face you see right now. Peter ... Peter? ...
Peter ... thank you. I came unto you [He laughs, so faintly.] and
you have comforted me. Dear Peter.
PETER: [almost fainting] Oh my God!
JERRY: You'd better go now. Somebody might come by, and
you don't want to be here when anyone comes.
PETER: [does not move, but begins to weep] Oh my God,
oh my God.
JERRY: [most faintly, now; he is very near death]: You won't
becoming back here any more, Peter; you've been dispossessed.
You've lost your bench, but you've defended your honour. And
Peter, I'll tell you something now; you're not really a vegetable;
it's all right, you're an animal. You're an animal, too. But you'd
better hurry now, Peter. Hurry, you'd better go ... see? [JERRY
takes a handkerchief and with great effort and pain wipes the
knife handle clean of fingerprints.] Hurry away, Peter. [PETER
begins to stagger away.] Wait ... wait, Peter. Take your book ...
book. Right here ... beside me ... on your bench ... my bench,
rather. Come ... take your book. [PETER starts for the book, but
retreats.] Hurry ... Peter. [PETER rushes to the bench, grabs
the book, retreats.] Very good, Peter ... very good. Now ...
hurry away. [PETER hesitates for a moment, then flees,
stage-left.] Hurry away ... [His eyes are closed now.] Hurry
away, your parakeets are making the dinner ... the cats ... are
setting the table ...
PETER: [off stage, a pitiful howl] OH MY GOD!
JERRY: [his eyes still closed, he shakes his head and speak;
a combination of scornful mimicry and supplication] Oh ... my ...
God. [He is dead.]