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I have met up with a few of my friends from my childhood over this year and last.

This week i have tried harder to see what is happening with the people i have not seen in sometime....i feel so different you know its kind of like a out of body experience.

I remember what i was like and what they where like and i guess i was just thinking to hard because i have cried over what i used to be like.

The friends that seemed to have dissipated and became replaced with people who are in way harder positions then my other old friends.

Sometimes i wish i had the time to go back and talk to them because when i left they seemed to be doing fine, but what if something happened when i was gone what if they had no one to talk to what if i became a horrible person by helping to many people and leaving some of them in the dust? What happened to the person that used to help so much even when her family was so down?

I fear that i have lost my mind or maybe i learned to much about the world to fast and it is just now catching up to me.

My friends have issues and i have had my own problems lately my step-siblings have gotten hooked to drugs and have hooked there mom to...she left my dad...he crys a lot lately and i can not think of the words to say anymore he says that what i tell him now is better then the words any adult could ever say to him but i just feel like whatever i do it still helps him none......