I wish I wasnt so dependent. To rely on friends. Nothing cheers me up anymore. No one makes me feel happy. I smile. But... If you read this.. you know it's fake. That I don't mean it. I'm crying out. Please... please help me. The darkness in my heart is taking control. I need help.. from someone. Anyone.. who will understand. I need to tame my darkness inside of me.
Yet, I am healing. I stop sometimes, and think. Few things make me happy...... Angela is one of them. She's my best friend. Is this what happieness is? To have a tint of sorrow... but still feel... strangely happy. Like the warm feeling of watching a sunset, sometimes.
the riveting rose · Thu Mar 26, 2009 @ 11:32pm · 0 Comments |