biggrin biggrin It seems like life is changing so fast and so are the people around me. I always have been used to being in control about my emotions and how people treat me but sometimes I do go far. I know it's because I am high-maintenance and becasue where grew it it's best to be straightforward and let things off you're chest. the one thing I learned from working in NY it's best to be yourself but I already felt the cost of standing up for myself. I lost friendships that weren't worth ahving and I get y way because I won't back down. I love friensds who accept me as I m and if they see me going about it the wrong way tell me how to tone it down and how to fix it. I hate feeling second palce but i realize only real friends love you for you and some i am just a convienant amusement until the next person comes along. I wear my heart on my sleeve and that hurts but in the end someone being mean to me will make me that much stronger but when do I stop feelin like this, upset because I say what I mean and express how I feel, and feeling like I am ignored or just sometimes I know people are tired of me. The one thing I also have learned I rather you say don't talk to me or you're just to me because I speak on all the little things. I am learning to toughen up with things but it takes one step at a time and I jsut feel like if I cannot be the same in people's eyes. i don't want any part of people like that . It's like beyonce song Irreplaceable I feel like that sometimes and that's because my high and low self esteem. I will give it time and see where I go from there.
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