Let us all laugh. Please, bring in the chorus of laughter and force me to stand and endure it. They don't have to be vampires, or witches, friends, or enemies but...the ability to laugh is all that's needed. Yes surround me and laugh because i deserve it.
I fought for a better tomorrow. Oh i remember the bloodshed like it was a minute ago. I faced my problems, my enemies, and i won. Well, not alone. Alone i failed. But with combined strength from my friends i managed to destory the evil that threatened to destory us all.
But...c'mon don't stop laughing!
I fought the wrong battle. How stupid of me! I spent all my strength and almost died for-for the wrong battle. And how do i know this? Well look at me! The entire point before was to defeat the pending doom and now it's here, and I'm so alone.
I don't belong here. All the darkness and familiar faces, they're not who i want to see. They relate to me and understand, but can they understand the need to be...human? No, they won't understand. Only Jade understood and i never told her. I guess she read my mind...
I wasted my life and energy on a battle that meant nothing. I lived, and it was because Jade was there. My past enemies are dead but they were only pawns in a much bigger game.
I don't want to play this game. It hurts too much. It hurts...
WHERE IS THE LAUGHTER?
No..no don't cry. Forgive my anger. Forgive my stupidity and my foolishness. Forgive my bloodlust, my handicapped life, and all my secrets i want to share but i keep them locked away. Just forgive me and maybe I'll stand to fight another day.
Oh, and now you're all in danger. It is because of me. Don't worry, even though I'm falling apart i will save you. Even though i am the villian i will pretend to be the hero. Even though the chances of failure are great, i will fall first.
And what is this silver smell? It...it tickles me. It makes me smile. Maybe i should find out.
I need glue. Do you have glue? Why is there no more laughter? Why are you all looking at me? Why are you depending on me?! Why! It makes no sense! Don't trust me! I'm about to break! See! Look i'm broken and i can't find the glue!
LAUGH! LAUGH! PLEASE JUST LAUGH SO I CAN HEAR IT! LAUGH!!!
...maybe this silver scent will lead to something good.
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Making up the Silence
To the past, or to the future. To an age when shadows find the light. From the darkest corner, from the brightest light at the end, from a vampire...greetings.
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