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This time I selected my music a little differently. I listened to different songs but people in my life came to mind when I was making this. Each song is somewhat dedicated to a person or people.

1. My World by Sick Puppies- This one goes out to myself. I know that people care for me and say that they won't forget me but their actions speak so much louder. I keep refusing to believe their actions will be left in the end. I kick and scream but then get seen as crazy for wanting people to care or feeling neglected. I am killed by their inability to see what is happening to my world because of them. I drown in my battle against the past. But I have help now.
2. Blue Monday by Orgy- This one goes out to Kira and Vanessa. I don't want to say what I need to say. You think you know me and that you're friends with me no matter what. Rethink. Backtrack. Rewind. You treat me like s**t. I helped and was kind to you and you're replying me back by slapping me. You were in the back seat and knew i could hear you so why continue with the s**t. If you tlak s**t while I'm around how can I expect you to be my friend when I'm not around? Then Vanessa thinks I don't know she was the one spreading s**t about me behind my back but I know. Talking s**t about me is fine but at least don't pretend to be my friend or talk about it in front of my friends. Most of them are too weak to stand up for me and if they do they are ridiculed. Either way they are hurt and I can't bear that.
3. Me Against The World by Simple Plan- This one goes out to Minnie. She has problems at home and with the world supressing her with laws or rules just because of her age, etc. When you get in trouble you often forget you have others there that aren't against you and just want you to suceed or be happy. You just want to fly and then when your feet lead you end up exactly where you need to be, with the one you love. I used to judge Min Min on the fact that she didn't like me but in a way I realized I have to change and she's got enough on her plate that it'd prolly be more exciting and fun to be her friend. Lol.
4. They by Jem- This goes out to Deveraux. A lot of people talk s**t about her and then a lot of the time it becomes true. When you hear things you often want to prove them wrong or jsut piss em off by doing just what they fear. I also chose this song because I fear that her demons aren't just pretend characters. In times of stress I believe they whisper and talk to her. When the day is done and you look back you don't know why you did that or you feel so bad for listening instead of following your own heart. Maybe I'm just wrong but that's how I feel.
5. I Am by Hilary Duff- This goes out to myself even though I don't really like Hilary Duff. After the Lizzie Maguire show I stopped liking her. Her movie was retarded. Anyway... this song wasjust great at expressing how you can't judge someone just because you know them for a period of time. A lot of the things she describes fit me and make me feel uplifted. I like that.
6. Carry On My Wayward Son by Kansas- This goes out to Josie. She worries too much about a lot of things she cannot control. I just think she needs a peaceful place she can cry at this time. School is almost over and for some reason she is pushing herself harder. I haven't actually talked to Josie since, oh maybe October. I loved the beat too. The poetry is quite nice and I think she would be one of those few people who would appreciate it fully. I hope she likes her Christmas gift ^^
7. Think Of Me by Phantom of the Opera- This song describes a bit about Mokona. I don't care anymore of she wants to be friends ever again but I don't want her remembering just the bad times. There were many good times as well and as long as you have bristles in your mind you have no room for the roses. May there be roses, rows and rows of roses like I hope all people have (except Alex BWAHAHAHAHA >.> wink
8. Angel of Music by Phantom of the Opera- This song is another just for me and everyone else to enjoy. Hehee. It reminds me of olden times ^^
9. Disco Duck by Rick Dees- This one makes me laugh. I hope it made you laugh too. ^^ I thought after all the other mopey kinda down songs you needed two song break <3 Yesh Yesh.
10. Summer In The City by Lovin Spoonful- This one is For Kitsua. I swear she has so much energy is makes me wish that the night was like the day. When I am around her I just want to do everything. It doesn't matter how hot or cold it is or how dead others are we just have a blast. I hope her life is like the nights in the summer in the city. With the heat just hot enough and fireflies on the lakes. When I think of Kitsua I think of the summer at a lake or river.
11. Running Away by Hoobastank- This is another to Deveraux. I feel like she is running away from me. To keep from telling me the truth she just hides from me. Indtead of facing me when she thinks I am mad at her she hides and then that plus worrying from other problems makes her sick and then emo. It's not a waste of time to check with me. We are supposed to be best of friends. So stop running from me and face me. If you hurt me I'll heal. If I hurt you I promise you'll heal for better or worse. What happens will happen but I'd rather face my destiny than run from it and let it choose for me cause that's not living.

My profile layout is finally complete that I had been working on. ^^ YAY!