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*sighs* im sorry i havent been doing a lot of journals lately..i havent had time off. today, however, i go to school later, so i can stay on here for a little longer. But this journal is something ive been meaning to say to all of my friends, gaian or not, and it really means a lot to me. Its not the depressing journal i posted last time. its a heartfelt one that i actually mean....


My friends are my anchors to reality, to be honest. Yes, i do have a family, but their actions are so odd that i cant fit in. Sometimes i feel as though i am an outsider to their world, a spectator or visitor in a home i dont belong in. But i know im still Azure's brother although my mind says otherwise...You see, friends to me are my family. Even though my parents tell me "you should always count on your brother, Alex. Friends will come and go" I sorta believe that, but i dont believe how they portray friends to me. My friends, the ones i know personally, would never leave me, and i thank them for that. It may seem like im always happy and spirited, but in reality, im sometimes depressed and sad about things that happen in my life. I keep up a happy facade so people wont know how i really feel about others and things in my life. I need my friends more than they need me. They ARE my family, although they have families of their own. Thats why ive adopted the self-proclaiming title of "Da Sentinel"--the protector. My friends have done so much for me in my life that they dont even realize it. They have held me up when i was down, and i want to do the same. I want to protect and serve mankind--just as my name says. Thats why im named this way--Alex, "helper of man". You see, im not just a guy. im more than that...

A SENTINEL!!!