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if i die im sure know one when i look at them thay look away and tell me im nothing meningless just anoter mistake once someone accturally
exepted me tolled me i was ill thay ever wanted all thay needed it
felt good the first time in my life i ever trusted someone ever cared
and then i found it was just a lie i was told to meet them in the park
so i did thay were there thay walked close to me smiling like nothing was wrong i felt some thing on my back it was the cold steal of a gun
i was parilised with fear i didnt understand i thought thay loved me
thay were every thing to me i couldent stop the tears from rolling down my face thay hit me me body droped to the ground more people arived
thay began beting me intel i cought up blood in some way i thought i
deserved it that i wasnt meant to be happy that i had been selfish i
still remember what he looked like when i was being betten i reached to him for help
but of course he didnt why would he im nothing meaningless i deserved
im not meant to be happy i never was i woke up in the middel of the park coverd in blood i had been shot 5 times when i got home my sister
looked as thought she had seen a goast i draged my slf to my room with 3 fractured ribs my sister almost broke the doors trying to get to
me she yelled she wanted to know what happend i just looked a way
i all most stoped breathing there was blood every were i had pasedout
and yet all i could see was his face just smileing then i could here her
voice calling me my sister was crying and now shes why im alive the reson for my living is her without her there would be know reason shes
the onlyone who would cae if i died shes my life now if you even touch her
wrong i will make your life hell