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Alone

Alone? Am I really?
Surrounded by those plastic facades
A mirage of emotions broken down to pure simplicity
I laugh
I cry
At times I really do reflect those feelings
At times I want to believe you do too.

When I’m sad I want you to ask me what’s wrong
When I’m happy I want you to smile
When I’m love sicken I want you to love me
When I’ve given up please give me hope.
Then I wish I could only do that same.

Do I have to bear my soul to the world?
Post my personal life for someone to take an interest?
Is my charisma nothing more than a dim glow
Among all of the spotlights?
I’m tired of trying, of pleasing
I want someone to see through it all
Without me having to force them

When I’m sad I want you to ask me what’s wrong
When I’m happy I want you to smile
When I’m love sicken I want you to love me
When I’ve given up please give me hope
Then I wish I could only do that same.

Didn’t you tell me you could see?
See the one that’s really me?
Or am I too good at disguising
Those real emotions beaming
But you don’t chose to see them
Looking only for similarities and neutralities
Yes I’m selfish, But you were too
How can you love me when you won’t let me love you?

When I’m sad I want you to ask me what’s wrong
When I’m happy I want you to smile
When I’m love sicken I want you to love me
When I’ve given up please give me hope
Then I wish I could only do that same.

I wish…Forever I wish