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sorry Dalila if it feels like i'm being a d**k for saying anything about your grades

I'm proud of you... I know that sounds lame... but it's true... i'm proud to know anyone that is smart and determined enough to get good grades...

does anyone know why that is?

because since as far back as I can remember... i've gotten F's and D's and the occasional C's...

that's because i'm an idiot...

well anyways...

this year is totally different...

but the same in so many shitty ways...

I have an A in English 12
I have an A in Health
I have an A in R.O.P. Legal Services and Law Enforcement
I have a B in English 11
I have an A in Woodshop 1
I have at least a B in U.S. Government and Economics


and you know how much money i'm going to get for it?

oh you guessed right!!

...nothing...

because my dad doesn't care...

why should he?

even though I come home with A's and B's and he still sees me as the dumb ******** up of his first marrage...

the reason I don't get paid is because my dad doesn't take an interest in anything I do...

when he does something for me even if it's something like open the door so I can walk into the house because my arms are full i'm gratefull...

i'm gratefull that he even looks at me...

i'm gratefull that he even dares breath in the ruined putrid air what's been tainted about me...

yet he has the tenacity to say that I'm not thankfull for anything he does for me...

for the first time in ever I have effing A's and B's!!!

and he doesn't give a s**t...

jee dad... thanks... that really makes me feel like i'm not a worthless peice of s**t that someone took, but was too big of a useless s**t that it couldn't even fit in the drain so you have to have a fancy professional plumber come and take it out with some sanitary gloves and equipment, because he doesn't want to get any of the s**t stink on his skin for fear that he might become infected with some contagious s**t virus.....

yeah.... it really doesn't make me feel like that....