WARNING:
this journal entry is just me working some thoughts out and most likely will make little to no sence to anyone but me.......
it was Rick. i know it was, and now some things that didnt make sence before suddenly do. i wish i had known what i know now a month ago. but now its too late and yet when i dream of him i feel no pain, no loss. he never realy left but suddenly he is feeling better and he seemed happier almost like how things were when we were 12 and the world seemed a friendlier place. like the first time we went to the marsh with his dad's credit card and went batshit on buying costumes for ren fair. he was so happy that day. I stilll have my giant stuffed dragon its one of the few things i have to bring memories of him. although every time i sit at a computer i think of him for a second. my mind is switching topics now.
maybe its for the best....
 RACHEL THE BOB · Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 09:12pm · 0 Comments |
