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The Comforting Words of an Email

I have to say, the only real friends I have are on gaia. I don't have any friends in life, which makes me a lonely loner. my friends emails,comments and IMs give me the strength to live in the cold world full of hatred, violence, hurtful words that you can't forget. I get that all the time. More than you no. I try many things to help others and myself, but that doesn't seem possible. I don't know why they tease me. Is it because I take a joke seriously? Is it that being dumb, have a snotty adittude, being the rich kid, the new black? Is being totally out of character the latest thing? Or even being totally out of your mind to do something that can get you in trouble just so people can laugh the cool thing to do?? Is there any commen scense in this world anymore?? Also many people tease and taunt me cuz I don't follow their rules that the make. Why should i? I don't want to end up in prison!! I think I'm losing my strength cuz I use to the "Comeback Kid." Now I just stand still and take it and then cry about it later! I am very strong in character but I can't stand this any longer. My friends here give my the will and strength to live in this world full of unfairness. I also brighten up their days for some of them. it helps a lot to be appireated. If only some of my friends from gaia could be with me when I need it the most. But I have to stop dreaming and start acting out. If I want to change the world, I'll do whatever it takes. There might be difficluties, but I'll keep working hard.