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its getting to hard to trust people....im losing so many i love...i just cant take much more of this pain...if i had a choice to rip my heart out i would this pain that i feel eats at me soul...the empty feeling i feel that is left behind when i lose someone dear to me.....today i was told i might lose two souls and it broke my heart...to lose another loved friend....when those two souls promised they wouldnt leave me...and one even swear to me that he wouldnt leave and now he might.....i cant continure this cycle of pain....with each soul lost the further i travel in darknesss and the more i wish to take a soul....i wont though....i hope....i cant lose anymore i will give anything so that i never lost my freinds.....but i know everyone must die or go sooner or later......i just wish it couold me later.....if i start acting weird this is my reason....