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so, I feel that there may be something seriously wrong with me. Not only am I constantly thinking about a certain someone. but it's 84 degrees outside and i'm inside in sweatpants and a sweatshirt wrapped in a blanket, trying my hardest not to vomit. To sum it up nicely, I feel like i'm dying, slowly and painfully. Sinking lower and lower into depression while trying to find a bit of happiness in anyone that is willing to offer. My life is gray and I feel myself slowly slipping away....and not some silly suicide, I feel like it's coming naturally and I don't know what I should do about it. Home all alone, all day. I might feel better if I could just forget about the person in my head. but that would require basically canceling my internet since I'm friends with that person on every site >.< But, then again I really don't want to forget the person because I enjoy talking with them. even though I'm a complete psycho just like my mother sometimes. I hope that one day, I can just be myself again.