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((Date of Fight: Thursday, May 29, 200 cool )

Me and my (once) second best friend got into a fight (on our bus in the morning). We haven't been close for about a year now, and with her getting involved in skipping 4 out of 5 school days and all. She only thinks about herself, which part of our argument was about. She is also very insecure, having changed everything about herself to become one of her friends (no, this is NOT about the whole being popular shpiel). She wants to be the first one to graduate high school in her family, and she's failing pretty much every class and now says she doesn't care. She also is an actual pot-head too.

Well, I had had a pretty rough day the day before and I didn't want her to talk about stuff she knew i didn't care about (I'd told her before), especially since I had talked to her earlier about some things that are very important to me, and she said, "I don't care." So I told her I don't care and she got all mad and was bitching me out. I just turned away and started to talk to some of my other friends.

Later, as I walk on the bus again to go home (all smiles because my adviser brought us donuts and I felt relieved after the fight, knowing that it was best we weren't friends), she shoves a note in my face. I took a seat out back (she was up front) and talked with my other friends again. She kept looking back at me, like I would regret the fight or if I read the note. I skimmed while she couldn't see, laughed and got on the other bus.

Then, I showed it to my best friend since forever (kindergarden) and we both agreed that I was NOT insecure about myself, I say I'm fat and I love it (it's cold a lot where I live and it helps you float in water) and etc.

Plus, I shouldn't need to sugar-coated things when I talk to a friend, a BEST friend. I don't with my all-time best friend, we literally tell each other how it is and that's how come we've stayed friends so long. Like I said, it's all about her and I wonder when she'll realize that she messed up and will regret having lost a friend who used to actually listen and care about her.

What's done is done and I'll take the mature way out and go on with my life.