To tell the truth I seen to have a problem, I know the school year (at least for me) is over but that does not mean that some of the things that happen there suddenly go to a halt. I'm not looking or advice just to vent things out. I won't even write what is it thats goin on because well there's someone here on Gaia that I know in real life that won't want me to say this and because I don't believe in mules because if you can't say something to someones face then don't say it. This way of thinking has given me a hell of a lot of trouble especially with authority figures, but I don't care because nobody really commands me I do as a please but I happen to be a good person so I'll follow instructions but don't boss me around. I will listen to advise but it's up to me to apply it to my life. Ask me to make a decision and I'll make it, but at the time I see fit not wen you think I should make it.
Why is it that people think that they know whats good for you? I think that no one knows whats best for me than me. I mean come on if I cant make a good decision for myself then why do have have judgement or a will of my own?
Have you ever notice that most of the junk they "teach" us in school we don't even use in real life? I mean what the hell is a conjunction any ways? And to tell the truth most of us don't need Trigonometry after school unless you become an engineer and most of of won't be that, so why even bother?
Now after all the useless moping I have been doing I can come to my real problem and thats feelings, I mean I'm not emo or nothing I just can't seen to see a difference between the kind of love between a best friends and lovers. The only thing I see different is the sexual attraction but sometimes there's some kind of sexual tension between best friends ,so yeah? and how do you even know wen your in love? some people say that is to be willing to die or that person or wanting to spend the rest of your life with them, but here's the thing I'm willing to die for all of the people I consider important in my life and the occasional stranger and every day I say to my best friends "I hope 30 years from now we can still be doing the crap we do together and that our children will be come the best of friends" so if thats not wanting to spend your life with someone then I don't know what it is, but of course I'm just a teen so what do I know?
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