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im sad. im angry. im happy. im hurt. im sore. im cared for. im confused. im loved. im hated. im fustrated. im smart. im a dumbass. im caring. im jealous. im selfish. im ******** up. im kicked. im imagining. im helping. im making others happy. im annoying. im not careful. im harsh. im trying. im hurting someone. im curious. im breathing slowly. im crying. im tearing everynight. im a blabber mouth. im hyper. im tired. im not me. im me. im wishing. im giving. im taking. im reaching. im a b***h. im a marshmallow. im not doing anything. im suffering. im sacrificing. im loving. im hating. im liking. im afraid. im scared. im forgetting. im giving up. im running. im running away. im dying. youre dying. theyre dying. were dying. im missing. youre missing. were desintegrating. im drifting. im dreaming. im leaving.

we both mean something. not just ourselves.


holy S|-|iT. i just figured out something.

I NEED more research.....
based on astrology. planets are changing around at this time im guessing..
water signs and earth signs are seperating and somethings causing chaos in between them. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON >.< this isnt right. i hate it.
If i could have known better... these mistakes wouldnt happen.
errrr.. whats going ON?!?.. i need more information.. or i need to leave it alone.
cant rely on horoscopes or astrology. cant trust. cant trust anything.......

helllpppppppp..... relationships......... what about it...... ehhff.

i dont need an adult, a physician, or a doctor.. i just need someone who realizes these things too.. just someone... errhhff.


or i think these things are only happen to certain people for certain reasons..
i hate stories who have two different sides hiding from each other..
it always ends up as a mystery ~_~

i need to trust someone.. someone i can truthfully talk to. who who who..
i dont know. so hard...

okay.. no solution -_-


i wish i knew how to pray my heart out.