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My Serenity

I'm too chicken to slit my wrists,
but i still make myself bleed.
I want someone to get a sword,
stab me through the heart,
and end my suffering,
because I can't do it myself.
If I do get stabbed through the heart,
with my last bit of strength I'll smile warmly.
with my last breath I'll say "Arigato",
then let deaths ice cold grip take hold of me.
I will fall into the darkness,
not caring if anyone catches me.
just wondering two things, "Am I missed? Was I useful?"
I would wonder these things as I wander through the dark nothingness for all eternity,
searching for the answer

What I Do

Here I Am
Alone
Again

Forever Watching
Always Observing
Never Talking
Never Speaking

I Think
And Think
That's All I Do

Reflect
On Me
Reflect
On You

Who I Watch

I Watch The Others
Happy
Content

They Have Friends
Close To Them

Friends

I Have Friends
Just Like Them
Not As Many
...
Not As Close

But They Are Friends
And They Are Mine

What I Am

I Am Distant
I Am Shy
I Am Silence
I Am Lie

I Am Everything
Unpleasant And Bad

And I Am Everything
Dark And Sad

I Am The One In The Mirror
The One You See
And Don't Want To Know

The One You Hear
But Do Not Show

I Am The Dark You Hide
Deep In Your Heart
I Am The Dark You Hide
But Cannot Part

I Am Avoidance
Depression
Suicide
And Spite

I Am Insanity
Paranoia
And Bitter's
Might

I Am Watcher:
The Quiet Who Takes In All

I Am Solitude:
The Quiet When You Fall

I Am The Loner:
The One Over There
The One You Don't Notice
The One Who Stares

I Am All That Is Unseen
To The Naked Eye
I Am The Black
You See When You Die.