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I was pulling in my drive way when I saw the door open to me and my Boyfriend house. The first thing that came into mind is my angel ok, she is my Daughter. Second thing that went threw my head. What is going on. I turned the ignition off and grabbed my bag from out the back and began to make my way in the house. From the look of where I was standing everything was destroyed. My mouth drop and ran into the house I didn’t care who was in there or if I was going to get kidnapped or what ever. I heard crying in the office. I dropped every thing and ran up the steps. Where I stop at the door and yelled. My boyfriend head was splatter over the desk and my baby girl was under the desk and pulling on her daddy leg. In disbelief I ran up to him pulled his helpless body into mines. As the blood exchange on to my clothes I cried in held him until two police officer came in.

“ma’am come with us” an officer said “you are under arrest anything you say can and will be use against you in the court of law if you can not afford to get an attorney one will be provided” The other said “YOUR ******** KIDDING ME MY BOYFRIEND IS IN HERE DEAD AND YOUR ARESTING ME” I yelled while tear ran like water falls. I could see this wasn’t going no where I pleaded for them to let me call my sister “ok just on phone call just to come get the baby” I told Kiema everything and disbelief also she rushed right over with Patrick. ’Bout time they arrived I was going away in hand cuffs and haled into the car. I was being rested for something I didn’t do.
Chapter 1

(Good cop Bad cop)


As I fettle with my fingers while my hands was in hand cuff I couldn’t help to think who really did this. “Ok ma’am what did you do to Dustin Michael Breeding” an officer said while he sat across from me “Like I said I didn’t do nothing and you asking me question while the killer is out there” I said an anger. The officer open a file “so you saying you didn’t get mad at him and shoot him in the back of the head” he said “how the h-e -hockey sticks I’m going to shoot him in the head with no gun!” I said slamming my hands on the table. I had to admit I did have a attitude problem and me and Dustin wasn’t the of couple but we made it work. Not for us but for angel. “Ok ms. Thomas I’m going to say this one time and one time only what happen to him?” he said getting serious “ o wow if I freakin knew then I would of told you I don’t think I will be sitting here crying my eyes out for nothing” I said ready to half choke this cop. He excepted my, smiled and left the room. I put my head down on the table and flash to the fight we had that morning

[Flash to the morning]


“ Why are we even fighting I don’t understand” I said yelling “Nisha you never understand you to busy with that dam job to spend time with me” He yelled back “Well I’m trying to keep a job. I have a baby that I have to support you sure aint giving me s**t” I said “You act like angel aint mines…is she?” he said raising his eye bra “ don’t be so stupid you know she is yours” I yelled “I cant believe you the baby isn’t mine is she?” he yelled “yes she is!” I yelled back . This went on back and forth until I told him “SHE IS DIEN DUSTIN SHE’S DIEN” I broke down in tears. I had trouble at birth when I was having her. The truth was I wasnt wrapped in work. I was wrapped in paper work trying to get her a heart transplant but she was so young. I prayed at night for her to be healthy and every breath she take may it not be her last. I threw an oven mitt at him and left.

[End of flash Back]

Another cop came in and slammed his hands on the table making me jump from my seat. What the hell was that for” I yelled “I see your not crying” he said “well I have no more tears to cry but I would bleed tears if that was the case” I said “what did you do to him?” he yelled in my ear “I didn’t do nothing” I said “O you sure in 5:45pm a phone call was made to the police station” he said playing the tape “that is not me” I yelled in shock “o well listen there is more” he said smiling sitting back “my name is Tanisha Thomas and I live on Shadily Brooke road 1034 I shot my boyfriend I made a terrible mistake” the tape recorded played “that is not me” I screamed and stood up. He pushed me down in the chair “we have your name and address right her give us one reason why we should believe you” before I could open my mouth my lawyer walked in “what are you doing” she said. “we are questioning her what do it look like” “well now your not, Tanisha don’t worry your sister call me and you will be leaving right now” she said “now lets go” I rose from my seat and left with my lawyer I couldn’t believe I was being black mailed who would do this?

Chapter 2

After I left the police station I went to Shawny house. She open the door and didn’t have nothing to say but pulled me into a hug “I’m so sorry” she said “I’m sorry to” I said as tears fell once again “why are you sorry” she said “I don’t know who could of did this I’m so full of s**t” I said She took me into the living room where I say Kelly was crying too. Shawny left me and Kelly to talk while she ran and made the call to the others. “I’m so sorry Kelly” I said trying to touch him. He pushed my hand off of him “that was my ******** brother he is dead now and don’t take it the wrong way but I just cant be touch” he said “he was my boyfriend to and I know he would want to find out who did this” I said wiping my tears away “its ok sis I still love you” he said standing up giving me a hug. I saw a scratch on Kelly neck and looked like he was fighting. It was fresh but that just could be Shawny and Kelly getting down who know. No stop Tanisha you are getting to carry away with this stop what you are doing right now. I said to my self.

After and hour everybody was sitting in the room with sobering going around and the rug was filled with tears. Everybody had somebody to cry on except me. I miss my baby. I took my actions for granted and now look his dead and the last thing I said was I hated him. I felt like it was all my fault. If i was spending more time with him. If I was doing what I need to be doing. “what are we going to do” Shawny said “what can we do” Carnell said “we cant just sit here” Kelly said “like what” Bryan said. They began to go back and forth in how and what they are going to do.

“shut the hell up” I yelled at Bryan and Carnell cause the was arguing on who did it. “look don’t worry about who did it we need leads” I said “I can do that” Jess rubbing her hands together “I look at the phone bills and what Dustin was texting and stuff like that” I said “but they will be watching me so I’m going to call my cousin down here to stay with me for a while” I continue “so you mean we are going to solve this” Patrick said “yeah I mean we in the ghetto and these pigs don’t do nothing and eat cup cakes and have sugar rushes” I said “ o s**t I like this” Kelly said “I can take over the world while I’m at it” he said trying to slide his joke in “yeah take over the world sweetie” Shawny said

We all discuss what we are going to do. I have the girls and phone calls and text messages while Kelly and pat has the streets and Jess, Meka and Kiema is going to go to the mall to see what they can find but we all know that they just want to go shopping. And Shawny Carnell and Bryan control the website. Yes we made a website. It may help it may not you never know.

Chapter 3

As a week went past I had under cover cops like white on Michael Jackson. I didn’t pay it no mind I kept my head held high and kept it moving but I did receive a package in the mail. I ask my friend to mail me all conversations and voice mails that had be erase or recorded some how he worked his magic and sent it to me. I start t play the messages with a little pen and paper near by.

[message 1]

“hey baby I miss you. I know everything hasn’t been working out with your girl and everything that’s why you should move in with me and your son. I’m tire Dustin of pretending things are ok but it is not” beep! The recorder sounded. As tears began to roll down my face dizzy had some hoe out there with his son and he aint even tell me what was good.

[message 49]

“Baby please pick up….I’m sorry ok I didn’t mean it I just wanted….I was mad baby please pick up” beep! I sounded again. As I looked over to my note pad with lost of notes I see that this trick called every other day at 6:00 pm.

[ conversations]


I ripped open another brown envelope that gave me all his phone call conversations. But it was these twp phone conversation that threw me off


Dustin - Man I don’t have it now I’m going to give you the damn money man you suppose to be my brother man

Red man - Na you suppose to be my ***** but you screwing my girl and you stole from me

Dustin - look I told you she didn’t say that she was your girl….she said that she aint even have no man

Red man - but ***** you knew I went with her…AND YOU STOLE MY MONEY

Dustin - I aint steal s**t she gave it to me man Ima give you your damn money back


The door shut busted open sending the paper to the floor “yo nisha I think we got something” Nellz said “yeah wassup” I said he pulled me to my office where my computer was and he looked got on the website before you knew it I was fill with rage pain and all the emotions you can think off. Somebody posted up them and Dustin having sex and I was pissed. I thought we was trying to make our relationship work but this fool up here sticking his banana into somebody split. I threw our picture of me him and angel on the floor which broke to pieces with me stepping right over it I need to get away with my baby.

The sun went down and we all gather in the living room to see what we have all collected. “iight what we working with” I said “well in the streets aint much talk people say he deserve it but that’s about it” Kelly said “yeah the mall aint give us so much either but girl let me tell you I found dese shoes on sale it was 59.99 but then it was on sale for 49.99 that is good girl” Meka said They all began to talk saying there in put but I toned them out. To all the fights we had. The slamming on the gas break throwing me out to walk and making think that we was going to be ok when it was all lies full of them it makes me wonder did he really deserve this death