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iFinally Get it
You know how some people say, "You can help others if you can't help yourself?"

It's true.

i've Come to a few of my friends in whom i've understood exactly what they're going through because i'm going through the same thing myself. i Want to help my friends so badly especially if i know that the situation they're in is unbareable. But since i cannot fix my own situation, i cannot help them with theirs. It just makes me feel so worthless and helpless and guilty.

Just last night i had a dream about my friend i was trying to help the other night.. i Don't think he understands that i know what he's in.. The dream was like a nightmare just reminding me over and over that i'm pretty much nothing to the people i try to help.. Just kept repeating, "i'm a failure. A failure. A failure. This isn't me. i'm nothing, but a failure. i Fail."

Then when i keep denying it all to him, [and myself] it only reminds me of the ignorance i recieve lately with my friends. He ignores my attempts. Another ignores the fact i exist anymore. Another does the exact same. Another doesn't care at all. Another i'm completely worthless to. To another i'm nothing. To another, i'm just a pathetic memory. To another, To ALL, i'm completely unacknowledged..

Again, i'll say, "Efforts Are Pointless, Hopeless. Dead."






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commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:09am
I'm sorry Sammy, but this is getting annoying. Your sounding lazing. Noone can always be of use. sad If you haven't gotten through something yet, it's either needs more time or you haven't wanted to get passed it yet. I'm sorry I'm sounding so mean.


commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:12am
********, Koy. It's not my ********' fault. You s**t people say, "Oh, you should put up more s**t, i read it" and you see what it ********' gets me? Just ******** it, Koy. If you think it's annoying, ignore me just like everyone else. i don't ********' care anymore.



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commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:24am
I knew I shouldn't have said anything. what the ******** is wrong with me. I didn't ask for you to do that, but I'm so sorry. I really need to stop with this. I've been degrading and everything is less than half of what it should be. I'm sorry if I'm unable to give any good or respectible advice for awhile. This is my fault....


commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:28am
..Hm



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commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:54am
Please forgive. I'm sorry. I'm not going to beon gaia for a while. I have things to take care of...


commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 01:56am
i'm sure.. Everyone does. i know. Yeah.. Whatever.. It won't matter anyway



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commentCommented on: Mon Dec 03, 2007 @ 08:03pm
The majority of people in this world go through some tough s**t, okay? I've been through plenty, but I prefer to act all "happy-go-lucky", than mourn my life away. You may deny it, but there is always going to be someone who has it worse than you. And now you know how some of your friends feel when making attempts to help you. You ignore them, just like the friends you try to help ignore you.

If you don't accept the help of others, there's no way they're going to be able to help you. .. Wait, why am I even typing this? You're probably not going to take advice, right? Right. So there's a minute of my life I'll never get back. See ya.


commentCommented on: Tue Dec 04, 2007 @ 01:12am
i ignore people who dont get the deal. i dont give a damn about the poeple who are apparenltly less fortunate. There's nothing i can do at all to help them, so dont even bother bringing it up.

And if you care so much about that pathetic, worthless minute of your life, dont ********' speak to me. Like you were going to get anything important done in that minute anyway.



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commentCommented on: Tue Dec 04, 2007 @ 07:45pm
Kay, sure. I'm not going to argue.


commentCommented on: Wed Dec 05, 2007 @ 11:45pm
Sammy, I've been thinking deeply and I believe I understand now. It's pitaful that it's taking me so long. sad I'm sorry I said that before. If you would ever want to talk, without being judged or been given an opinion. What ever is bothering you might make you think clearer and feel a little bit better to have it out a little. I'm thinking much more clearly myself. ^_^ And I'm always willing to offer or give a hug to you. I owe you a lot, but that isn't why I'm wanting to do this. I'm want to help you that is all.



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commentCommented on: Wed Dec 05, 2007 @ 11:48pm
Mm.. Thank you, Koy..


commentCommented on: Sat Dec 08, 2007 @ 08:20pm
Your welcome.



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