You know how some people say, "You can help others if you can't help yourself?"
It's true.
i've Come to a few of my friends in whom i've understood exactly what they're going through because i'm going through the same thing myself. i Want to help my friends so badly especially if i know that the situation they're in is unbareable. But since i cannot fix my own situation, i cannot help them with theirs. It just makes me feel so worthless and helpless and guilty.
Just last night i had a dream about my friend i was trying to help the other night.. i Don't think he understands that i know what he's in.. The dream was like a nightmare just reminding me over and over that i'm pretty much nothing to the people i try to help.. Just kept repeating, "i'm a failure. A failure. A failure. This isn't me. i'm nothing, but a failure. i Fail."
Then when i keep denying it all to him, [and myself] it only reminds me of the ignorance i recieve lately with my friends. He ignores my attempts. Another ignores the fact i exist anymore. Another does the exact same. Another doesn't care at all. Another i'm completely worthless to. To another i'm nothing. To another, i'm just a pathetic memory. To another, To ALL, i'm completely unacknowledged..
Again, i'll say, "Efforts Are Pointless, Hopeless. Dead."
It's true.
i've Come to a few of my friends in whom i've understood exactly what they're going through because i'm going through the same thing myself. i Want to help my friends so badly especially if i know that the situation they're in is unbareable. But since i cannot fix my own situation, i cannot help them with theirs. It just makes me feel so worthless and helpless and guilty.
Just last night i had a dream about my friend i was trying to help the other night.. i Don't think he understands that i know what he's in.. The dream was like a nightmare just reminding me over and over that i'm pretty much nothing to the people i try to help.. Just kept repeating, "i'm a failure. A failure. A failure. This isn't me. i'm nothing, but a failure. i Fail."
Then when i keep denying it all to him, [and myself] it only reminds me of the ignorance i recieve lately with my friends. He ignores my attempts. Another ignores the fact i exist anymore. Another does the exact same. Another doesn't care at all. Another i'm completely worthless to. To another i'm nothing. To another, i'm just a pathetic memory. To another, To ALL, i'm completely unacknowledged..
Again, i'll say, "Efforts Are Pointless, Hopeless. Dead."
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