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uh stupid cold DX what did you mean by post your theme songs, poems etc?

they still consider my theme song beyond the bounds though we all know the lyrics have nothing to do with me xd so were looking for my new theme song

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away. And I must go over still into the darkness of dawn
If I try to play it straight, it will no doubt fail,
And tonight it won't go well between us again. <<<< ( refering to moments between my sisters or my competitve moments with my friend brian )

You can't see all of my hard efforts, because it's only result
Is that it makes no sense. It really is a "tightrope".

More effort, more damage--this is my daily life.
Taking a cynical attitude may give me some comfort...

Hiding myself, heated and irritated; living only a short time.

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And I must go over still into the darkness of dawn.

If I let my emotions free,
My dreams will once again not go well.

I think the balance sheet of my life is imperfect.
If I add up the plusses and minuses, will it really equal zero?

I want to control all my luck
That may be used up before my life is ended.

You don't know--you can change logic at your will.

Modottekichau, aijou ni
I hurt myself because of you, over and over;
But my love didn't go away--it kept coming back.

The toughness gained from my damage is unbelievable.
I won't be able to sleep at all tonight either.

However many times it's repeated,.
It revives again and again--because it's love.

You can't blame my emotion,
Because you should know it will never fade away.

When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away.
And even though I'm in the darkness of dawn, I have to go.

I don't care about "bad affinity".
Even if our love is not doing well,
Nevertheless we have deep ties.

NO LONGER LOYAL- Emily Irene Alexander

Sometimes I just want to scream,
It would solve nothing but blowing off steam,
Whatever happened to unconditional love?
I guess it disappeared along with god above,
You say your a christian who follows the sacred book,
Think you protray a saints mercy take another look,
You've got alot to learn dear mother of mine,
If your to narrow minded that's just fine,
Everytime you point your finger three are pointing back at you,
You judge far to much watch what you drive people to do,
All in good time,
You'll pay for your crime,
I don't need your approval,
All I need is your removal,
Forget my number,
Don't think of me in your slumber,
If helping me was your intention,
Show me no of your attention,
For you did more harm than good,
Now I'll turn to my brothers in the hood,
Close your door on me,
And please, mom throw away the key,
No longer will I ask for anything from you,
I can make it on my own watch what i can do,
Just see how successfull I am to,
Not your choices but mine,
Perhaps I'm happy working in a place you dine,
Maybe I want to be a gypsy,
So what if I get a bit tipsy,
I've thought about writing for the rest of my life,
It will help me vent all of this strife,
Ever think my goal could be to work with clay?
No this is not just some child's play,
What if my destiny was to build a house,
It could even be to save a small mouse,
But see mother this is the whole point,
It's my decision if i smoke a joint,
If I die my hair yellow,
It doesn't mean I've met the wrong fellow,
Piercing my nose is no great sin,
Face it sugar you ain't goin to win,
Control issues that's what you've got,
But tameable I'm simply not,
Like a caged bird who's wings you plan to clip,
You take away my freedom and watch me flip,
But see dear mother i haven't forgot how to fly,
For the day I do my spirits will die,
Think your making the best decisions for me?
Think again cuz you got alot to see,
Face it you got played,
And still you stayed,
Not strong enough to walk away,
Now the time has come that you will pay,
There's reason behind what we do,
If you weren't so blind you would have knew,
When a child becomes successful who do we praise?
So when something goes wrong why just blame it on a faze?
As a parent you take the pleasure without the pain,
If you don't face your demons nothing will you gain,
You had me fooled for so long,
But I'm sorry to tell you your wrong,
Are you aware of the scars i bare?
Because your denial is so unfair,
Turn the other way if you can't look,
I know reality will leave you shook,
Think you've made leaps and bounds in the right direction?
So why are you still miles from perfection?
No I'm not asking for you to change,
All I ask is that you broaden your narrow range,
How many people must you drive away,
Before you realize you had a part in why we refused to stay?
Yes you're responsible for the harm dad caused,
It was like living in a bad movie that you paused,
All of the turmoil made me sick,
Someday this cronic illness I hope to lick,
I'm snipping the wires that connect you to me,
Still I don't know if it will make you see,
That your not always right,
Sometimes you cause the fight,
I've made it this far without asking you how,
So what makes you think I need your opinion now?
When my lights got turned off did I turn to you?
Tell me mother what did I do?
Somehow without you I pulled through,
I lived through a winter without any heat,
There is nothing I can't defeat,
I endured a life that exsists only in your dreams,
And still you never heard my screams,
I share painfull experiences with you,
Later you twist it and say look what you LET people do,
You say "you make your bed lay in it,"
Obviously I do so stop trhowing a fit,
Never again those words will I hear,
Because to you I will not be near,
That's it mom I'm done,
Now when I see you I'll run,
You praise the poems I write to dad,
But when I open up to you all you do is get mad,
I realize this confession you cannot deal,
From my truthful words you will never heal,
Sorry mom for what I'm about to do,
I'm declaring myself no longer loyal to you!