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ok..so i just recently found out that my father was having an affair with my mother.
and i was like what?!?!??!?!?! scream and my mom had asked me a serious question when we were camping the other day. she held my wrists down..and after i
had found out about the whole affair thing..i was pretty numb..like if you were to hit me, i wouldnt feel it. and anyyywwaayyss....my mother had held my wrists down
pretty tight while saying "Hailey, if i were to leave you, like your father left me, where do you want to live?" and i responded "well, i need you right now, so i guess i would have to follow you." and she says "Hailey, i done care about you, i dont care
about Hunter (her grandson and my nephew) and...(the list goes on..) and im a selfish b***h, so tell me, what do you want to do woth your life?" and i told her, i would like to live with my sister in washington. and this morning, i felt this pain on the back of my wrist, and there is a purple briuse from my mother holding my hands down. it doesnt hurt, but the point is, how do i know she wont take it to the next level? i know that my mom fights pretty dirty. i have my older sister, she knows from experience. and she has always told me, if she EVER hurts me, then to fight back..and i really dont know what to do. and i know i should be with my sister, but the things i will leave... it kills me. my family, has always turned there cheeck when it comes to my safety, and my family also doesnt care if my mother is a high drunk. all they want to believe, is that i will keep my mouth shut, and never speak of it..and if i were to, they would tape over my mouth and scribble out the truth with their lies. but the only people that are keeping me from leaving...are my REAL family...my FRIENDS. and they are the only reason i am actually alive. i highly doubt that i would be on this earth if it wasnt for my them. .......................................ugh! this is making me sound like a little emo kid. for all of you people who actually think that..IM NOT EMO!!!!!!!!!! sure, im put in that catagory, but im not. and i just cant make up my desicion whether i should stay with my parents, or i should leave the people who actually CARE about me and start over. i need help...any comments or concerns? i can use all the help i can get!!!