If you know me well, you know that I don't think much of myself. I'm usually quite self loathing. I'd put myself down a lot, not for attention like those dumbasses do, but because I hated the way I was.
I've come across yet another revelation; I'm embracing what I am. Sure I may not be pretty or attractive, and I may not have the best personality. But nonetheless, I might aswell take pride in myself and become somewhat even. Yesterday, for the first time in several months, I felt a rush of genuine happiness. It was just so awesome. I was crazy and didn't care. I was hugging all my friends, laughing and smiling to the point of nausea. Yeah, it may not be your vision of happiness, but I just haven't been able to let myself feel good. I like the feeling of being content and even. And me being happy with who I am is the first step.
"I love all of you
Hurt by the cold
So hard and lonely, too
When you don't know yourself"
RHCP - My Friends
-Schizoid
 Refined Corruption · Thu Jun 09, 2005 @ 11:00pm · 0 Comments |
