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HeartBroken, again Yeah, i thought it was over. Tried to control it. Turns out i can't.. Ow.

Posted by: The_Hopeless_And_Broken Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 03:41am

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:02am


	Whats wrong Sammy? sad

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:04am


	Just.. my friends.. i'm too dependant and i assume things, then i just end up being thrown down and i don't know how..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:10am


	cry How to get up...?

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:12am


	i don't know why i even try.. Hope is retarded and pointless..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:17am


	Possible that your just drifting till you find why, cause there is anything else that can be done. Maybe, I don't know.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:23am


	Noone does.. Anyway.. Ugh, i just don't know why i don't block myself off from reality and everything in it..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:33am


	Because it's real. It's normal to be compeled to the truth. Good or bad. Truth... the resson why I'm the way I am.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:36am


	******** truth, i don't want to know anything, i don't want to remember anything, i don't want to think anything.. All my friends, they're leaving and the only way i can not hurt is if i block myself off.. If i even glance at someone i want to be friends with, it stabs me. Now seeing my friends.. not care at all, leave me for others.. It just hurts so bad.. i don't want to know..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:45am


	That's kind of what I may have to do. When I get out of school I plan on leaving everyone and everything and go somewhere where noone one knows me and live alone. I'm almost scared to do that. It's kind of painful at the that of leaving all my campanions and the one I love behind. I reminds me of when I finnaly admited that I would never see my first and only friend that I grew up with. It put an empty feel in my chest. So uncomfortable. I couldn't stop crying, this was on the way from school on the bus. I had bugers and everything. And I never care in the least again about him. I'm going to do this most likey but who know what will happen in 2half years from now.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:49am


	What you're doing is exactly what one of my friends are doing to me.. James, i wish he wouldn't leave so much.. Isabel's moving to Pennsylvania.. Savanah moved to Washington state.. i'm alone.. And the few people i do talk to don't seem to care..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 04:58am


	I'll be around for a few years and I'll try to respond as often as I can. But your probably meaning people in person. I'm sorry. sad

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:01am


	Well.. It's actually both..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:07am


	cry I like to think of you as my friend. But aswell as you I'll have to leave behind. I'm sorry for doing this. But for now I'll talk to you when I can. You've helped me so much and I wish to help the same.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:10am


	Leaving doesn't really help, Koy..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:17am


	Leaving seems to be the only thing to do for someone line me. Me! A soldier. A freak. The person wish too serve is probably going somewhere esle too. It's the best time I too forget and walk away.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:23am


	You can never forget.. But whatever, your life.. Do what you want..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:27am


	No,no. Your right. I can never forget. I used the wrong word. I ment not to ever personaly derect my attention towards.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:30am


	So just to not care anymore

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:34am


	Yes.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:37am


	Yeah.. i've been caring less and less about things.. But it still hurts all the same

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:45am


	If I could give you a hug, I would. cry I wish I could say more.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:49am


	.. Life is so stupid.. Not only with friends, but with parents too.. They've been so pissy lately..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:54am


	It could also be you who is "pissy". Pardon me saying. sad Please.

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 05:57am


	i'm not pissy.. i'm on the low end. If i was pissy, you'd know it. i'd be abusive, yelling, swearing, etc..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:02am


	Your absolutly right. I haven't heard a single swear. And you only seem sad. I'm sorry for saying. gonk

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:05am


	Yeah..

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:09am


	Hugs I'm so sorry. crying

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:11am


	.. hugs back For what?

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:16am


	For saying that. cry My memory and judgement isn't great right know. I'm sorry. crying

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:18am


	ill never leave you...

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:19am


	Please don't cry, Koy.. i'm not offended and i didn't get pissed because you said it did i? Thanks, Anthony..

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:26am


	No you didn't. But I feel so bad about it. I'm sorry.

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:28am


	It's not of matter now.. Alright?

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:33am


	O.k. I'm glade. Hug

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:34am


	Hehe.. "glade"

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:38am


	Glade I didn't hurt you. Or did I miss-spell Glad. sweatdrop

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:41am


	Hehe, yesh, you did 4laugh huggles

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:43am


	sweatdrop smile

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:44am


	mrgreen

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 06:52am


	biggrin

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 07:23am


	xd

Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 07:44pm


	You know if you want my help you can always just call me, right? When my homework's done I might call you just because I miss ya.

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Commented on: Sat Oct 06, 2007 @ 10:28pm


	Heheh, yeah.. i don't usually call anyone anymore anyway..

Commented on: Wed Jun 10, 2009 @ 01:13pm


	I think its HILARIOUS how much Anthony proved my point of this journal. rofl

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