Were not dead yet but somehow
one way or the other weve all been buried,
deep in the sand gasping
for air.
Just hoping someone will be
kind enough to give you some help.
When no one does we sink
even deeper,into a pit of
despair
and
hopelessness
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Choking on the words that were
never said,fighting the anger
that we keep locked inside.
When the anger sheds we make
sure
that tears dont fall with the words,
that we always end up wishing we
hadnt said in the first place.
At the end of the day were the ones who
end up with nothing but a comfy bed and
a pillow waiting to catch the tears
that we always shed.
When the only people you trust
turn there backs on you too
what to do?We cry ourselves
to sleep
hoping for a better
tomarrow.
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umm...lets see
when push comes to shove
ill probably still be an idiot standing here
waiting for you
to come back hold my hand
and tell me everythings okay.
So tell me why is it,that ill
never hate you no matter what?
And ill take your words with understanding
tell you the truth,show you scars
and in the end your not freaked out,
it turns out that im more freaked out then
you are...so tell me should i be?
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Get me out of this state of mind
and let me go back to
when these memories were a
reality and not just
something to look back on,
I want you alive on all
standards.
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in a world like this who on earth is going to believe the truth?
we only listen to the lies,
the things we want to hear that makes others feel better
a chance to be the ones singled out,
just because were different.
is it really worth the
abuse
to go through it?
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its over your gone and im dead(on the inside),
and its all happening over again.
my heart is black ill be consumed by darkness
with no way out.
ive lost my hope,the only thing i had
you said it was good
but really its more dissapointing.
"Its easier to hate then it is to love,especially when its dissapointed love."
why do i bother? you dont care anymore.
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Sitting in the rain.
Its funny how you think its all
okay
and that you can handle things on
your own,when the truth is you
cant.
So tell me what do i do when it all
comes crashing down?
With no room to even escape,
no way of breathing.
Hoping that you still
care for me.
Its so odd when your shelter
and the one who told you to tell them
what you need isnt there,
and all you want to do is scream out loud
in hoping they might come
back to you.
Although all along someone (i) made the mistake
of letting them (you) go.
I only have me and the
rain, to freeze and hope to god
that you still love me like i love
you.
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Bleeding out on the floor
with the wounds of stabbing.
Marks everywhere on walls
from mistakes im keeping track of.
I listend to my mind rather then my
heart
(shouldnt have let you go)
The words from my mouth
are saying lies and
the lies are
convincing enough
for you to see im being
as fake as
the mask that i
wear on my
face.
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To see you that your happy
makes me feel better
although i know your not
completely happy,
you want something
more then what you already
have. But we should be
content
with what we have.
As long your by my side i know
i wont do anything stupid
and fade away like
him.
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Needing to learn to let go
isnt anything im good at,
if you think
im ready to give up
and make sure that your
letting go.
your way off track,
the moment you left
ive had so many
nightmares
were you blamed me.
the part that makes it worse
is that it is my fault.
Theres no way of getting forgiveness
for not being there because the image i have
stuck in my head is you in that place
and telling jokes.
Hiding all the
pain,
but i dont know why
you didnt want me to see
you.
i should of fought
but i didnt.
the want to see you now is
just an impulse,rather
then something your able to resist.
To be able to stay where i am
and let the feeling
die,isnt what i
plan to do at
all.
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im giving up slowly,
the feeling wont die though.
youll be there in my dreams
in my thoughts.
Ill be able to hang myself
with all the memories.
But the color fades and the
tears start to fall,
when the need to let go
is big.
The thing is i wont
because theres still
this hope in my mind
that youll
still want me in the
end.
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It’s getting harder to breathe, I can hear the people talking.
There’s a light in the distance I can see it so well.
Then it looks like there’s a head floating.
Then I hear you say come one please
hold on.
Not thinking that anyone would even want me to hang on
I was wrong.
As they put me in the ambulance I dream.
Seeing what my life could be like.
Who was in it.
Seeing that your not.
I wake up and get pushed back
down on the table.
We pull up and get taken in and I call you to tell you
what I feel
only to find out why
I saw you weren’t in my future and it made me cry.
As I sat there and cried I felt like dying.
I needed someone’s shoulder to cry on but no ones there.
I ran as fast as I could with my mascara running down my cheek.
I end up in a garden and find a flower and run more until I pass out.
When I wake up my flowers gone
and you are you too.
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