She's the first thing I think about in the morning, the thing i fall asleep thinking about at night. I sometimes even dream about her. My heart leaps every time my phone buzzes cause there's always the possibility that it's her calling. My day doesn't feel right unless I speak to her, unless I tell her how much I miss and love her. Any other girl I see I barely feel attraction towards her as I feel my love is worth so much more to me. My brain never functions properly around her, yet so much goes through my mind that it feels like it's gonna explode. Every moment I long to kiss her, to hold her, to spend every bit of my spare time with her. I'd give up almost anything for her, including my life, which is beyond my normal reasoning.
It has gone beyond my whole plan of helping others fall in love without doing so myself. I know you'd be thinking that I'm selling a product I don't believe in, but that's not true. Being a cupid requires sacrifice, and one cannot help another if his problems are just and complicated, that's splitting attention.
Yet I'm falling in love, against my will, against my nature. I had always lacked trust in having people close to me, yet I leaped blindly for her. A complication that is me...
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The complications that are me
just some random thoughts and stuff i hate to keep in my head too long
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