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so here I am, sitting in front of the computer with the air conditioner blasting after a day's work.

*silence*

no seriously, i had a really busy day. A busy WEEK actually.

Like today. 8 June...the start of the dreaded exams. Chinese writing and 'Religious Education' (lol). And I was late for my first subject (RE). It turned out I didn't know half the answers to the paper. Oh well, whatever. RE isn't really that important anyway...only 10% of it counts towards the final mark.

Chinese writing...I think i did quite good. Better than I imagined. There were 3 questions, and I chose the first one. "Write something you saw, heard, thought and felt while you were at a mall". Pretty easy, even for a person who's not so good at chinese like me.

And then, after all that, we had to get our bags checked. As in dump our stuff on the desk to see whether we bought anything against the rules. Yeah, phones, ipods, nds, psp and all that other stuff aren't allowed at schools here in hk. It really sucks. We're not even allowed to dye our hair. and I REALLY want to dye it purple, red, green, white, pink, blue etc....and boys aren't allowed to have hair pass their shoulders. which sucks as well.

So all that checking made me late for my guitar lessons. Well i didn't learn anything new anyway...and after that, we had band practice. We couldn't practice anything anyway, our drummer was MISSING. so I went home...and yeah.

So about the other days. Wednesday. Our school's social worker came to our home and did a so called 'interview', because i'm supposed to be this 'emotionally challenged dude who cuts himself and always skip school' etc etc. Ok, first up, i'm NOT EMO.

*silence*

Ok. So i'm half-emo. I mean, sure i cut myself, but i haven't done it for at least half a year. And i don't bleed black, and i don't cry during classes. That doesn't make me an emo.

But anyway, the 'social worker' said something to my dad, and my dad said something about my sexuality that TOTALLY pissed me off (i told them i was questioning my sexuality last month) so...i 'drew a deep red line on my arm'. Like, if he can't accept me for who I am, then don't. I don't care. He can at least keep his thoughts to himself. What he said made me feel really disrespected. And I keep saying, being gay is NOT a choice. it's something you were born with. I'm questioning my sexuality because it's taking me a while to realize whether i'm gay or not. i'm NOT MAKING A CHOICE HERE.

...damn, its making me emo stare but yeah, the wound is getting better now. It was as wide as a mouth...I had to close it with tape. lol.