• Evertday I see they change infront of me
    the ones I thought cared
    the ones I've called my friends
    I don't want to be here
    everything is what I fear

    my heart wishes to be the one thing I can't see
    everything I have become
    I wish it to become one

    this is where I stand and cry
    for my lovers face is gone in my minds eye
    I should have walked off the edge
    then I would be appart of the dead
    I would see my love whenever I wanted

    When I see them I think
    that is how it should be
    my former friends
    smiling
    happily
    without me

    I smile, Lieing gritting my teeth
    I paint my face
    I change my clothes
    I can't be with them
    I just can't be
    I'm not like them
    I'm lieing to them
    I'm lieing to me
    when can I see my true rflection
    in the mirror of truth
    even thought I cry
    tears do not run from my minds eye
    only blood

    When I do not see them
    it means
    I can not be them
    although I try and hide my tears
    all those stories that i hear
    I do not have any to share
    I make up some so I can be there
    be with the people
    I love
    I hate
    I have to bo
    even though I still can't be me
    all the pains I call off
    they come back
    stronger
    sp many times more

    I hear them call for me
    and I don't answer
    because I don't want to so
    I want to be invisible
    so I can cry forever

    Everyday I see they change infront of me
    the ones I cannot be
    for I only see
    the horror and the pain that is me