Where to start emmmm? Guess I'll just start with the most recent. *cough sigh cough* >.> ok then.........
So tonight it was confirmed. My mother doesn't approve of my being bi. I thought she was okay with it, but it turns out she thought it was purely curiosity of a game. *sigh* Looks like I'm back into the fire as my mother also convienced my father that I wasn't bi. Terrific. Guess I'll have to cross that bridge when I there............
Ok next thing is change. Ooooooo ahhhhhh.........Big scary change! 0_0 Yea. So ummm you know that saying 'Be patient, people don't change overnight'. yea that's never applied to me. I've always just.....uh changed. I'm pretty sure I've talked about it before but well I repeat myself a lot.
So um back to 'Change'. Ok....so I only have two examples. One's lame so I'll use it first. so like I've mentioned how I used to be like depressingly depressed. Yea I said that. Anyways so after being depressed for so long, one night I was just staring at my ceiling sick of everything seeming to suck all the time. So I simply decided to stop. Next morning, all gone. It was all locked up untill I decided to let it out. Just. Like. That. *sigh*
Moving on. *ahem* So. Eh......I dunno how long ago, but I guess it doesn't matter. Seems stupid though. And yet not? Ugh. Whatever. So whatever the time ago it was, I used to be like patheticly shy adn self-concious. Okay so I never fixed the shy part. No ones perfect razz Anyways. Distractions, distractions eh? So we were on vacation, waterpark, the whole 9 yards. (wait I don't even now what that means........) but we were getting ready to go, and I was just sitting in front of a mirror, scowling (think its scowling anyways) waiting for the rest of the family to finish so we can leave. I'm not sure what it was, but suddenly, I was like ******** this and I was CURED. Yeah. Whoopdeedoo. Yay for me.
Ok so its taken me like 3hrs to get all this down and I'm in to shitty a mood to continue. Ah! before I forget, my baby girls home! She had to go to the hospital yesterday and stay overnight, but she's back now and has three meds she has to take. Poor thing. crying
Now I leave.
 BSPBleach · Fri Jun 03, 2011 @ 07:18am · 0 Comments |
