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	My stories ^.^ These are stories I will write and posibly never finish as usual. So I thought About puting them in my journal so that at least someone will see them instead of just me.

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...to me... Is it emo, to not want to celebrate your own birthday? I mean, i know older women don't like it, because it only reminds them of how old (and not young) they look or are. But I'm 17(or rather will be in a couple of hours), and I should enjoy my life as a kid while I still can, but, i can't help but feel that that time is limited and i don't work well under pressure. I also think it's pretty sad that to me, tomorrow is just an ordinary day. Nothing about it stands out. I remember I used to get excited on the eve of my birthday every year, but now... I just count down the days at the beginning of the month and when it gets here... what then? I know i won't feel happy about it, but i won't hate it. I felt happy yesterday, for like an instant. I gave away my received candy(That i couldn't eat) to grama's neighbor. A little girl, like 5-8 years old or something. I kinda looked to her grandmother that was watering the garden in front, and when i offered the candy, they both lit up like Christmas trees. That sudden smile made me smile, but i was so nevous, i didn't know what to say (remember i'm a shy girl) snd I only smiled and said your welcome when they thanked me and went right into the house. Is it, perhaps, that my life is so perfect, it's beginning to feel dull? sad I don't want to feel that way when my life is GREAT. I need help. I worry everyday that I may be beginning my slow really slow descent into depression or something, and That's one thing i never want to be.. Raia Arimary · Wed Feb 16, 2011 @ 01:13am · 0 Comments


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