I just wanted to get attention, I just wanted to have more friends in secondary school. I just didn't want to be all by myself anymore. I hate that feeling. I despise loneliness.
I keep trying to run away from you and to hide from and to ignore you.. all the time. but, you know what? It hardly ever works. i never turns out right. Cuz I'd fall in love with you again, again, again and again.
When I picture you in my head, I feel like hugging you, .. at least I used to think that way. but now, I just want to slap you. i want you to snap out of it. Can't you see something that's right in front of you? Stupid! There are three qualities of a true friend: 1) That person will always care about you. 2) Always be there for you; 3) Understands you. I want to know more about you. i want to understand.. I got the first two already. But.. you wouldn't let me in on the last. I hate you! I hate you for making me love you so... much.
I've tried TOO many times. I give up. Just one more chance.. one more chance for you and for me to get rid of this pain once and for all. Its either you or me or that other person..(you know who I'm talking about.. right?) I'm sure that if you had a choice, you would choose that other person than me.. I feel like all the attempts I made so far in this year are so futile. So USELESS.
I really feel so confused now. tell me.. would you choose me? Or the other person? or YOURSELF?
 Moonlight Nightingale · Thu Oct 29, 2009 @ 01:20pm · 0 Comments |
