A baby
A child,
Your sisters creation.
A bud,
A flower.
Something your heart can devour.
So innocent.
So small.
Something dare i say it?
Divine.
You: its keeper.
Its mother is of no use.
The pain it will feel.
When it wonders:
"What happened to mom?"
"Where is she?"
"How come, i never see her for long?"
"Why cant she stay. i really want to see her today."
I'm sorry she's gone.
She has to get help for herself.
Don't worry i'm here
Your uncle Troy is here to save the day!
-You smiled with pain.
You've spoken nothing but lies.
This baby will never know,
why her mother will always hide.
Her father the coward.
Left her at our door step,
Something i'll always regret.
Because i never finished school.
I force myself to regain hope,
why did her mother have to fail?
Too drugged up to try to realize that the powder
would consume her.
Too ******** up to even realize that she
abandoned her youngest child.
I look down and stare into the eyes of
her forgotten child.
Shes to young to ever understand.
I myself need to realize that my "young"
days will soon come too an end.
The drunken ties webbed through my eyes.
Will have to disconnect.
She looks like her and her father,
the mad man to confused to even care.
It bothers me when i see that she realizes
that something isn't fair.
"Daddy Troy can we watch Blues Clues?"
she grabs my hand
she tugs and pulls but i don't move and inch.
She turns around with a concerned cute frown
"Daddy Troy whats happened now?"
She tugs at me one last time
i move my lips but i make no sound.
She asks again
I stare ahead
I drop the phone out of hand.
I look around trying not to cry,
Because the denial will
be found.
I look down again and avoid her eyes.
I whisper softly
Into the air
"Momma Asha wont be coming home again.."
I wish i could make it all untrue.
My soon to be fiance
will leave me with this child.
I could have lied
but damn those brown eyes,
they sink sharp claws into my heart.
I look away i cant dare to see
that this child knows what this means.
She lets go of my hand
and grabs on to my leg
This poor child
has been abandoned once again.
 A t e l i c E n i g m a · Wed Aug 19, 2009 @ 12:14am · 0 Comments |
