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well here i am again journal once again broken and regreting what i had done wishing i could take bak those hateful words i said but what has been said can not be unsaid so ill just have to live with it but i dont think that living part is going to happen i already feel dead. it sucks being dead.........not being able to feel.........to b hallow........but ive had this feeling 4 a long time but its never been this amplified like this before i hope this pain can end soon..........love is so beautiful but ur only granted it 4 a while.......i was in love once in fact im still in love with the same person but i know soon ill fall out of it cuz i wont b here anymore. i really should check into a mental hospital but i find that to b a waste of time. ive been there before and all it did was make me more depressed and upset. so going again would b worse. i just i die from this bleeding really i hope to god i do cuz i dont want this pain its to much for me.GOD IF UR THERE F U C K ING HELP ME!!!!! SOME ONE PLZ HELP ME THERE IS NO ONE ELSE IM ONLY AGAIN STUCK IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN HEAD OF MINE AND I CAN GET OUT.............PLZ SOMEONE COME AND SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL.......FROM THIS NIGHTMARE I WISH TO B SET FREE FROM THIS............BUT NO WILL COME..........IM ALL ALONE..........AGAIN