I swear, I think I hate my friends. It's summer vacation, a time to hang out with all of your friends, not just one or two. My friend, Kishi, and I went to the midnight showing of Transformers 2, and who happens to be there? All of our other friends. I must have missed that memo. And the worst part? They didn't even sit with us. They looked at us, waved, and sat somewhere else. Yeah, screw you guys too. I try to be a good friend, to be there for them no matter what, but they are making it hard as hell. And I'm too nice to tell them off. I only write this because I know they would never read it. They just don't care. During school, I feel like they only talk to me because I help them with their work. I swear, I wish I had the guts to tell them off for being the sons of bitches they are. And I'm too nice to not help them. But I'm starting to think that I won't help them next year. If they don't graduate, that's their faults. I can't do everything for them.
I don't know why I am friends with them, or why I help them out so much. I think I know why I was in depression. Every time I see all of their cars parked in front of one house, I want to destroy their cars. I've been bottling up my anger, but I'm afraid that I'm gonna break down soon, and they are gonna be in the middle of it. I just want them to tell my why. Am I not "good enough" to hang with them? I personally think that I'm too good. Just because I'm smarter and friendlier, they must feel threatened. That's the only option I can think of. I'm just glad that Kishi hasn't felt that way. Without her, I'd probably be emo XD winter rose I really don't want to blow up in their faces, so I hope that I can make it through this one year. One more year of high school, and then I'm in college. I never have to see those bastards ever again. I'm happy just thinking about it.
 Arashi Erina · Wed Jun 24, 2009 @ 11:09am · 2 Comments |
