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Launch Shinhan
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]: It would make me feel better...
If you guys read this and commented.

Hey everyone. Well, Mister Lonely is dead but you cant still love her. :]
Something happened that just...really broke me so, you can just...bear with me while I try to make it until Christmas. D:
Heres acouple of songs that I agree with...right now.


i swear that i,
can go on forever, again,
please let me know,
that my one bad day, will end,
give me your lips, and with one kiss, we begin,

are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,
im lost without you,
are you afraid of leaving tonight?
cause i am,
im lost without you.

i'll leave my room,
open till sunrise, for you,
i'll keep my eyes,
patiently focused, on you,
where are you know?
i can hear footsteps, i'm dreaming,
and if you will,
keep me from waking, to belive this,

are you afraid of being alone?
cause i am,
i'm lost without you,
are you afraid of leaving tongiht?
cause i am
i'm lost without you.
I'm lost without you - Blink-182

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believin')
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late

You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believin')
Some song name that I forget - Blink-182

I heard you're doin' okay
But I want you to know
I'm addic-
I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I try to make you happy
But you left anyway

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
Still addic-
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true

I'd run a thousand miles to get to you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to treat you good in every way

I'm tryin' to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting
Till the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you

I'm trying to forget
But I'm addicted to you
But I wanted
And I needed
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Want to do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
Addicted - Simple Plan

I guess thats it because I cant find the next song lyrics. Yeah...I wonder why theres so many songs someone can relate to. Thats weird.
Well, last night I prayed...again and I asked God why this happened and then I thought for a while and then...I thanked God...I thanked him for letting me have this experience and also...I thanked him for Chewy being there for me. Without her, I would have killed myself through this. She was really the spine of the book and I was the pages. She really kept me together and I owe her soooo much. Thanks Chewy. :] heart
I told all my friends, "Maddie" and Rebecca said they would take care of it and that made me smile. All of my friends have been making me laugh or smile to get me through this and its been helping me. Now I relize... I really need a real lover. xD I asked my mom yesterday if she could call the school and ask for any dances with Iona so...Im excited to hear about that. cool
Right now I'm sitting in the Asylum hallway charging my laptop and waiting for Math class. Its quite lonely in the hallway. All I hear is rare noises in the other hallways around me and I remember my first day at school when the girls were helping me get around the school and they were trying to discribe how to get to the asylum. Hah...that was funny...then I remember yesterday when I was waiting for that same girl to come hang out with me until 3:30 because thats what we always do now. And then, I would have my little obbsessive moment over...well...him and she would be there listening and putting up with me. When she found out about this, she gave me a hug...which is something she would never do. She was comferting me after that...
I guess thats someone else to thank God for...my "Maddie" or ...Allison. :] The person whose "identity I stole". I guess I could thank him for Rebecca too since, without her I wouldnt know Allison and I would have NO friends here. x.x
I guess I wrote enough for you guys to read and also...my hand hurts. x3
Please leave me comments. heart I would like to be cheered up. :] And those do. 8]
I love all my friends. Dont you guys ever leave me. ;-;
And Sara, thanks for talking to me on the phone yesterday...you made me laugh and the whole thing with your dad was really funny. x3 "PRETEND YOUR HELPING ME WITH HOMEWORK!" "Sara?" "Damnit..." "Hello Alison" "Hii. ^^" "Um, Alison, Sara has to call you back after she finished her homework"
There was this whole really funny convo that I dont feel like writing out but then we refused to hang up and kept saying "Bye" to each other over and over. Then, I just went crazy like I was mad or something and I couldnt help it. ;-;
Opps...I gues Im not done with what I have to say xD
Oh well...let me finish. D:<
This morning when I woke up...my head hurt like crazy. So, I feel asleep for a little longer but my dad came up and started to scream at me. And my dad NEVER screams. Then, when he left, I started crying cause one...my head hurt and that made it worse, two, he scared me, and three...I was thinking about what happened yesterday.
Im done now. :] Cause I think MAth is soon. >> <<
Bye. heart






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Riku Kenkaku
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comment Commented on: Tue Nov 29, 2005 @ 09:44pm
Awww. <33 I feel special now! D: ^^
Dun worry. I'll always be here! =D
And if you ever commit suicide, I'll kill you!
mad heart

Yes. Was thinking about how no matter what mood you're in, there's a song to describe what you're going through. oO
Sometimes, in the exact words.
Creepy, eh?


comment Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 12:31pm
Too creepy. ><;
They are all true too. Dx
;_;



Launch Shinhan
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comment Commented on: Wed Nov 30, 2005 @ 12:55pm
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comment Commented on: Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 01:32pm
User Image :: Hugs Mr. Lonely :: sad heart User Image



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Launch Shinhan
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comment Commented on: Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 03:38pm
Tanka Neuneu. :]


comment Commented on: Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 09:10pm
I luff you.
And the dog WAS drunk.
And he was ALSO humping the lawn chair thinking it was a person.
I can't wait to see you on Saturday and I'll call you again.. Lyke, today.
=D
Or maybe nowKBYE! biggrin



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