I was given a choice today. My parents may be seperated but not by divorce. not becuse of an arguement, merely becuse my father would have to go back to arizona. so my choice is to stay in georgia, or return to the hell that for some reason i feel is almost home.
i've been contemplating this all day. nothing good has come of it either. if i return, will graduate with my friends and be sad til then? if i stay will i be ableto tolerate my mother and grandmother ALONE for 24/7? but then i realized something. i made a third choice long ago. back in my freshman year.
my second family. my second home. my sister, my second mother, my older sister, my little niece, the friends i've made because of my sister. am i really ready to give up and start again in another school making it my fourth school in four years? am i willing to start again from no- wait, it wouldn't be nothing.
My second family is what i call home because i feel like i can be calm and relax there. they're my safety net, when most things go wrong, my second family and my love, they're there as soon as i need them.
Am I ready to leave and join them, leave my family til the x-mas break when i'd return to georgia? Am i WANTING to go and join them?
...Two years and all we've gotten is letters,emails, and phone calls. I'm not pissed, not yet. I'll wait til the verdict is given. Then I'll explain more.
-Kim
 Island Tomboy · Mon Dec 08, 2008 @ 02:43am · 1 Comments |
