YOU KNOW SOMETHING ******** THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ******** GIVE UP ON WHATEVER IS GOING THROUGH MY MIND AND IM TRYING TO PUT DOWN
my emotians are gone i have no way of telling anyone about them
its impossible
annd its ******** happening again
ive lost many friends because of this ******** depression
and the first time it happened it came from the relization of one thing....
ill never find love
i remember that day
i was pissed off for weeks on end
its not for me
in orderto have love you have to have emotian
without that you become detached
you're there but your heart isnt...
it happened again
ive been thinking it over and over and over again
ill never find love
i guess its just not for me
haveing no emotians suck and there is no way to reverse this one...
i feel this one is going to be with me for a long time...
when it leaves maybe ill be a better person
my eyes wider letting me see more
maybe then ill know what i want... who i want...
ill stop this now
no ones going to read this so i have no fears about what people will think of me
i really never had
ill be somewhere laughing at you with a good life
or somewhere at the bottom of a trench dead
who knows how my future will play out...
what would i rather have 1000000 dollars or friends
its not easy to find good friends anymore
especially when you find a intrest in them
im in like become emotinally attached to them
it just kills you slower trying to change for the person
i know its the right thing to change but
what if they keep wanting you to change
you soon become something your not...
you become something else..........
but really what do i know about these things i probably wont know anyhting about it
i dont want to but as of now it seems highly likely...
 Gods_Black_Wings · Sat Dec 06, 2008 @ 06:07am · 1 Comments |
