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A City With No People

In this city...
There are no people.
The lights are on in all the houes,
But, there is nobody on the streets.
Are there people inside? I peek in a window to find out.
There are people.
But they are with them.
I look in other houses.
These people are with them too.
This city is just like all the rest.
Being with them is fun.
More fun than being with people.
Nobody comes outside anymore.
There are no people in this city.
I will leave this city and go to another one.
I hope that I will meet someone.
Someone just for me.
But if that special someone falls in love with me...
I will have to leave that someone.
Even so, I want to meet that special someone.
This is what I think as I leave the city with no people.

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They Can Do Anything

They...
Can do anything.
They are super-people made by people.
They can be prettier than the real thing.
They can be smarter than the real thing.
They can be whatever people want them to be. Whatever people can dream of.
When the people saw their creation, they thought that their dreams had come true.
Then...
People forgot their dreams. And in time, they invited people to share in a new dream...
A dream they can't wake up from.
But...
Is that the dream that people want?
Is that what happiness is?
They...
Were created to make people happy.
But...
Are people truly happy being with them.
Is this city with no people truly happy?
But...
Are people truly happy being with them?
Is this city with no people truly happy?
I don't know.
Because...
Happiness depends on the individual.
All people are different. No two are the same.
What makes one person happy...
Might make another sad.
People's souls come in all shapes and sizes.
And as time goes on and a person grows,
Their soul can change.
Their hopes and dreams can change.
That's why...
There isn't just one type of happiness.
Then...
There must be a way that I can be happy too.
That is what we all want, isn't it?
To find the person just for you, to find you own happiness...That would be wonderful, wouldn't it?

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A Wish that Can't Be Granted
One day I went to a new city.
They are in this city too.
There is no place without them anymore.
They people are with them.
There are as many of them as there are people.
But...
There is only one person just for me...
And I still have not found him.
You are a person, aren't you?
What was that? I should do what with my hand?
Hold it out?
Where aer you taking me?
Is this your house?
Why did you bring me here?
Are you...
The person just for me?
You might be...
But...
Perhaps this person only brought me here...
Because I'm one of them.
Maybe he's just like everyone else. Maybe he just wants me to grant his wishes.
But there is one wish that I can't grant.
If I grant that wish...
I would...

Have to say goodbye forever to the someone just for me.

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Someone Just For Me

Just as I feared...
There's no one here either.
Everyone is inside with them.
Being with them is like living a beautiful dream.
A beautiful dream...
That no one wants to wake from.
They will grant your deepest wishes.
They will do whatever you ask.
They will be whatever you want.
They can do things that you cannot.
But...
There is one thing...
They cannot do.
They can never become people.
They might look like people,
But they are only substitutes.
I know this very well because I am one of them.
Today I look for someone just for me.
Someone wo has love for me alone.
Someone who will love me even if I can't fulfill their wishes.
But...
There is another me.
The other me asks...
Does such a person exist?
I need...
Someone whose love for me is true.
I want...
Someone who loves me without asking anything in exchange.
I hope...
Unless the someone loves me for being me...
They're not someone just for me.
Is this so?
It is.
This someone exists?
He does.
If so...
Then where?
My someone is nearby, I think. Perhaps I already know him.
But...
What if that person does not love you back?
What if that person likes someone...
Other than you?
People aren't like them.
You can't erase their feelings.
People aren't easy to change.
I know.
But people do change.
Their feelings are dynamic.
Feelings of love are more resistant than others.
What if he never loves you?
Then I'll have to decide.
Decide...
And then do what must be done.
Me and the other me.

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Little by Little

Many days have passed since you...
Brought me to this place.
You still go outside, even when you have me.
You experience many things outside.
And then you come home and tell me about them.
Sometimes, you even take me outside.
Even though I'm one of them.
You tell me that I can do whatever I want with my things, as if we were equals.
Little by little,
The time with you and me passes.
Little by little, the distance is moving.
Yours and my distance.
Little by little, this space becomes yours and mine.
But has the distance between us gotten smaller?
Or has it grown bigger?
I don't know
I do know that I want it to be smaller.
But then the same thing would happen again.
It won't be the same.
This person isn't that person.
It's someone else, people are all different.
Even if people look the same...They're all a little bit different.
No two hearts are exactly the same.
That's why the same thing won't happen.
Then is that person the someone just for me?
I don't know.
But...
I'm starting to hope that he is.
In this place that this person brought me to...
Little by little...
Little by little...
I'm beginning to hope that...
I can start finding happiness.
But...
Someone will come to stop it.
Someone will come to prevent me from finding the someone just for me.
And...
That person will take care of me,
But it's not because I'm me.
That person is kind.
To all people and all of them,
He is kind.
Right.
That person is kind,
And probably not just towards me.
But even if that person is kind to all, his kindness should be a little different each time.
He can't be kind in the same way to everyone...
Because that person is a person.
That's right.
A person's heart can't stay the same forever.
A person's heart changes a little bit every day...
Because that is their nature.
It can be different.
It doesn't always have to be the same.
If he...
Finds in me the things that make me special.
If he likes me because I am me.
If that person takes the time to find what makes me different from the others...
If he likes me because I'm me...
If that happens...
We may be able to become something a little different from before.
I may not have to lose what's most important to me...
Like last time.
What's most important...
What's most important to them and to people...
Is something precious...
Something you can't lose.
The proof that I am who I am...
The special proof.
That proof will tell me who my someone is.
That special, special...
Someone...just for me.
I am you...
And you are me.
That's how I know that...
Inside of me, I'm one full person.
I am happy when that person smiles.
I am happy when that person is near.
Yes.
I am happy...
When that person is happy.
That person is special, different from other people.
You found it!
The thing that makes that person special...
That makes him different from the rest...is that he is him.
I found him.
The person that's precious and special...
The someone just for me.
I hope that person finds them.
The things that he can't do because he is him.
The things that he can do because he is him.
I have found him.
I fell in love with him because he is that person.
Hopefully he will find them.
The things that I can do because I am me,
And the things that I can't do because I am me.
That person will find them.
And then...
Hopefully he will love me...
Because I am me.
Out of all people and all of them...
I want him to find me.
And I want him to love me.
This feeling inside of me...
Is very soft...
But sometimes it hurts.
I become full of this feeling when I think of that person.
Do you feel that way about everybody?
No, only when I think of that person.
What happens when you're with that person?
I get warm...
Like I'm glowing inside.
What if you can't be together?
It hurts.
It really, really hurts right here.
Like you're about to die?
We can't die.
We can't die because we're not alive.
Perhaps not.
But it feels the same as if we could.
Because we are them.
I hope we can be happy someday...
When you find you're someone just for you.
But...
If we don't become happy...
If the someone just for me knows all the things I can and cannot do because I am me...
And he still doesn't choose me, then...
Then...
I will have to decide what to do...
About you...
And about us...
What is wrong?
It hurts.
If the someone just for me does not choose me...
I'm afraid the hurt right here will be so bad...
That I'll stop working.
It's a powerful feeling, isn't it?
A hurt so strong it can cause you to break.
There are no peope in this city...
But...
But through their windows, everyone looks happy inside.
Are these people truly happy?
And...
Are they truly happy?
I am surrounded by people who stay inside with them...
All that I want right now, more than anything else...
Is to be with him.
The glow inside is brightest when that person is near...
And the pain inside hurts more when he is away.
I am happiest when I think about that person...
I am saddest when I think about that person.
That person makes all my feelings more intense.
That must be what love is.
So please...
Let the person that I love...
Be the someone just for me.

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A Warm Heart
This city has no people...
But...
The light burning in the homes...
Is warm and bright.
I am in a city with no people...
But I'm not sad or lonely.
My heart glows.
I am one of them, but I still feel warm inside.
That's because I love this person.
The heart of someone who's...
In love...
Whether that person is alive or not...
Is kind and warm.
If my heart is this warm...
If I can be this happy...
Then I wish taht all those like me can fall in love...
And that all of them will have their love returned.
The love we feel may not be the same...
But it doesn't matter when I'm with the someone just for me.
If we can all find that special person..
Then the world will be a most joyous place.
Then...
This city...
Will have no unhappy people.
It's the special city that has...
The someone just for me.