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why is it that whenever i do something good it never goes noticed? it's because i'm female, isn't it?
dammit, i'm so tired of doing a great job on something and then have everyone shoot it down because of LITTLE imperfections. i made the kitchen SHINE the other day, for example, and my mom came up and put her hand on the the counter.
"It's too gritty. wash it again"
i washed her car because i wanted to help her out.
"you missed the tires. can't you do it right?"
i CRIED today because i spent the money i'd earned washing my dad's BOX of a vehicle without being asked on a candle holder for my mom and my idiot friends shattered it. i frantically tried to put it back together and my (other) friends totally helped me out in super-gluing it. do you know what my mom said?
"The cracks are kinda ugly. we can use it later." and then proceeded to yell at me to clean the kitchen, insist that i was a slob, then yell at me for getting angry at this.
it's unfair! it's hard enough keeping my tongue when i'm hormonal, and she's throwing salt in my wounds.
as if i didn't have a bad enough week, with all my fights with my boyfriend and brothers. and my parents calling me stupid and yelling and i just want to break down and cry and scream like a six year old.

i'm ready to lie down and die.
die in a ditch.
then become a zombie and eat the brain of everyone who pissed me off.