You know how it feels when you can't really go to your anyone for help? Not even your parents? You know that nonstop burning inside for everyone to just go away? It hurts... alot. I am pulled back and forth neverending in a sick game of tug-o-war with my parents.
My father is nothing but that, a name, he is never there for me when I need him. I think that all he cares about is hurting my mom by any means necesary. He twists and turns everything I say, and now it looks like I am the traitor. I try not to get mad and upset, it's just not worth getting sick about.
I'm not sure what to do. I'm just a kid. No matter what i say or do the fighting will never stop. I'm so lost, and I can't find my way home.
Sadly enough my thoughts have even wondered to suicide. I laugh thinking of the different ways I've thought of doing it. But every time I even start to think, "This is my only choice, there is nothing else I can do.." I remember everyone who loves me, not because God says to, but because I'm me. And i stop and think of everyone who would be hurt by this act and i stop.
Nathan Gilbert~ June 10
 Haseo Hyuuga · Mon Jun 11, 2007 @ 02:02am · 4 Comments |
