something I wrote

• Artist: thaumatological
• Description: it's supposed to be all lowercase, to emphasize things... whatever you feel like it means.
  I was trying to write my about me for my profile, but then this happened. I felt it would be better here.
• Date: 12/02/2012
• Tags: something wrote

i try to make myself visible in this world where nothing stays the same
and isn't that what i want? isn't boring what i hate?
but i can't handle the unchanging outside, even being hypocritical
because nothing changes there
and everything does here
yet it's meaningless,
meaningless
changes so small they disappear
and i'm here,
still here
and i wait
i wait for something to happen
for someone to find
that one safe haven
where the changes are big
where i stay now
alone and afraid of all who come near
so they flee
yet i'm still here
still waiting
waiting for people who only flee
afraid of the people i need