• I feel so stupid,
    So blind.
    How'd I do it?
    How'd I screw up this time?

    I almost lost her.
    My best friend.
    Because of some guy,
    It almost came to an end.

    For twelve years I've known her,
    And in a few weeks...
    I screwed up.
    Now I can't stand to speak.

    It hurts,
    Just having the thought.
    That I hurt my best friend,
    That I jumped that far off.

    She'd stated the obvious,
    I'd changed but so had she.
    We both seemed shocked,
    Both looked in the mirror to see.

    What had really changed?
    Besides the obvious outer shell.
    I had definitely become depressed.
    And that's not all to fail.

    I realized right there,
    That I'd been pushing her away.
    Guess I felt stupid then,
    Because I admitted my mistake.

    Sure it hurt and I started to walk out.
    Tears streamed down my face,
    Then I stopped and turned back.
    She had called my name.

    What more could she possibly want?
    She wanted me to go.
    But all she said was one small word
    All she said was "No…"

    She asked me to forgive her,
    But I shook my head.
    Said, "…You were right all along,
    Please, Forgive me instead…"

    I walked away once more,
    But she didn't call me again.
    I think she was shocked.
    For now, we'll just deal with the pain...